My Alleged Husband

These countless days and nights, I don’t know how to express my true feelings for you.

"Child, you must understand, although the world is so vast and you can go to many places, do you feel there is a place for you in this world?

Well, sometimes being willful comes with a painful price. No one should let you be willful time after time, yet she has repeatedly forgiven you without obligation, and you always take it for granted, not caring about others’ feelings at all, which is impossible.

Everyone has their own way of living.

Grandfather truly disapproves of your way of living because you are gambling with your child’s happiness. Can you really bear it? Seeing your five-year-old child about to turn six, and you, this mother, choose to separate from his father, you choose to let him become a child of a single parent, how should he think about everything in his heart?

I have no right to judge whether the things you are doing are selfish or anything else. I only know that once you’ve made such a decision, you’ll absolutely have no chance to regret it in this lifetime. Not everything in the world allows for regret. You should understand many things and once you’ve made a decision, no one in the world will explain to you whether your actions are right or wrong. You are already an adult and should pay the price for your actions that you should bear. If you choose this way, when your child grows up and learns the truth, because you became like this, do you think he might choose to hate you?"

Ran Zhihan was silent; to be honest, he had listened to every word Old Master Zhang said. He just didn’t know how to express his inner thoughts. If his own child chooses to hate his mother, how painful would that be in his heart, how should he face all of this, but the words felt beyond his control, many things can’t be changed with just a few simple words.

No woman hopes for her marriage to become broken, only wishing for a happy life within her marriage, but God never enhances their lives according to their desires. Instead, he showcases life’s brilliance through repeated hardships.

At this moment, his heart is actually desperate. He knows what kind of cruel result his actions will bring to his child.

He can’t bear to do this; after all, it’s his biological child. How could a mother allow her child to endure such pain? Many things waver in the heart, unsure of the right path to choose, knowing every action may not be correct, but longing that if someday he does make such a decision, and the child chooses to hate him, how should he face his child, all because of his willfulness leading to the child ultimately not understanding the mother’s feelings?

"Grandfather, I really don’t know what to do. Every action I’ve taken is truly just hoping this family can live in harmony and happiness. I never thought my actions would make this family so difficult to maintain peace. I don’t want this to continue; I only wish one day my child can proudly say I am a good mother because of me.

You’re right, I shouldn’t gamble with my child’s happiness. My child is dear to my heart. I’ve raised him painstakingly all these years, carried him for ten months, how much I care for him, no one knows, but I only wish for him to grow happily, not letting anything affect his growth, as that alone is enough for me as a mother!

I also understand some things have no way to be avoided; avoiding repeatedly, ultimately facing the choice simplifies matters, knowing everyone’s inner thoughts differ, like mine now, I only wish my child a happy life, no other thoughts, never thought I could live happily all along, just want my son to consider his mother as his pride, that’s enough."

"Actually you should really understand now, you end up with no place to hide, the world is too vast, but you’ll never escape his scrutiny, he holds the world’s economy in his grasp, do you think you can dodge his tracking? With no way to escape, don’t struggle pointlessly as it distances feelings, leave each other a retreat, don’t destroy utterly, for ultimately the hurt will be the kindest person in your hearts!

For your child, as a mother, indeed should bravely pay any price, not fear enduring blame for your son, yet I hope you bravely keep living, you’re my favored granddaughter-in-law, how could I bear seeing this happen between you and my beloved grandson, I am not one who sees no right from wrong, this old fool has seen all worldly matters, don’t care who started things, care only if this family can peacefully endure, united, respecting one another, no longer contradictory due to anything!"

"Grandfather, you’re right, as vast as the world is, where can I go with my son? I never thought, never thought this big world would end up having no place for me and my son, all its economy controlled by him, no one dares to shelter me nor confront him, slowly I understand many things shouldn’t be forced, what belongs eventually will be yours, if not yours too many desires yield no results, why not let go, allow happiness, let once-loved ones laugh carefree endlessly, isn’t this more important than anything else?"

Your presence is the source of all beauty; the tales once told in books will truly be fulfilled.