My Feelings Can Wait

What she said is true, but it's only light to avoid the weight-if you speak too lightly, you won't believe it; if you speak too clear, you can't.

At that time, Ji Yuyan's body was ruined, and everything seemed to be completely hopeless. Everyone thought she could recognize the reality and went home.But Jingxuan doesn't.

She squeezed the jade in her hand, stood under the scorching sun and wind for a long time, finally found her voice, turned around and said to Tao Xingruo, "You can go back first."

Tao Xing was stunned, "What about you?"

Jing Xiu's eyes were sinking like a pool of stagnant water, Tao Xingruo understood her silent persistence-she still had to continue according to the original plan.In this state of Jingxun, how could she rest assured to leave her alone.But Jingxun didn't believe her anymore, she didn't believe that there was really anyone in this world willing to help her with her words.

She made an excuse to dismiss Tao Xingruo, and left alone with her bodyguard.

The address that Dao Kong had given earlier was a long time ago, and Jing Xiu only vaguely remembered it.There are many large and small Buddhist temples in Tibet. Following the fragmentary address clues, she wandered through mountains and rivers, and finally found the Buddhist temple where Daokong was.

It was an ancient temple built on a remote mountain. Just after the heavy rain, the mountain road was rugged and muddy. Jing Xiu slipped a few times, almost holding his last breath up.Standing on the mountainside, they could see the old and dilapidated Buddhist temple not far away, which had been washed by the heavy rain. Inside the gate, there were few incense sticks, and it did not look like a holy place blessed by monks.Even the bodyguards were a little disappointed for Jing Xun.

But Jing Xiu still came up.She stood outside the mountain gate, first shaken off her muddy body, straightened her posture, blessed her body with her hands folded, and then raised her foot to get started.She didn't believe in anything before, but now she is willing to be the most devout believer at the feet of Buddha.

As soon as she stepped into the mountain gate, the little monk in plain clothes who was sweeping the floor not far from the door looked up to see her, and joined her at a distance.

He walked to Jingxun's side and said a Buddha's chant: "Master knows that the donor will come, and has been waiting for a long time. But it is too late and I am unable to return to heaven. Please come back, the donor."

Jing Xiujie's eyes for many days suddenly burst into morbid ecstasy due to his refusal.

She insisted on seeing Dao Kong, but the little monk took the command of his teacher and said nothing to introduce him.Everything has an opportunity, and the opportunity has passed. Don't force it.The little monk advised him like this.

Jing Xiu didn't hear a word.She has nowhere to go except for force.

She bowed her legs and kowtowed in front of the hall, begging, "I beg the master to see the disciples."

The heavy rain at night could not extinguish her delusion, and the clear Sanskrit sound in the morning could not fulfill her obsession. She knelt in front of the hall for two days, and when the last breath was almost gone, Dao Kong Mercy, finally met her.

He sighed: "Idiot, it's all calamity." The world has the same cause and effect, it is her hit that deserves this calamity, and it is also his hit that deserves this calamity.Take her life, pay her back.

So he set up the dojo, led Jingxiu to drink the Sanyuan Talisman Water, cut the blood veins between his wrists, injured his vitality, destroyed his life style, borrowed his future life to make up for the life of Ji Yuyan, and led the way with blood. The body steps into the river of time, retracing time.Wherever she stops, time starts again.

Dao Kong said that the secret technique has been lost for a long time, the success or failure is in heaven, life and death are unpredictable.

Jing Xiu left a letter to deal with the matter behind him.

She said she would.

Dao Kong said that she was a person of great merit, so she was noble in life, enjoyed the tenth generation of blessings, and was honorable.Going against the sky now involves too many lives and commits too many karma.From then on, it should be the destruction of merit and the loss of glory.

Jing Xiu said that she has no regrets.

"Borrowing the fate of the future, the things of this life" Jing Xuan said lightly, but it fell in Ji Youyan's ears but it was no less than five thunders.

What is borrowed life?Axun, is there no afterlife?Ji Yuyan was in a daze, his kneeling body weakened, and he collapsed back.

"Yanyan!" Jing Xiu quickly stabilized her shoulder with eyes fast.

Ji Yooyan pressed his hand on the bay window to support his body, and asked Jingxun forcibly, "I don't understand...Axun, please tell me...clearly?" Isn't it what she thought, right?Not...

Jing Xiu took her other hand that was clenched into a fist, stroked the deep nail marks in her palm, and said gently: "As you dreamed of, and as you guessed, the safety button is The medium records the memories I have in my last life, and carries the spiritual power that I have exchanged for the past life. With the help of Daokong Master’s guardian, I look back in time. I guess it’s because of the uniqueness of the item, so when time returns, I As soon as I opened my hand, your safety clasp changed color and lay in my hand. The number of lives in the afterlife, this is the price I paid. "Half true half false.

"It's just the next life, there is the next life, the next life, so..."

She didn't finish her comforting words, Ji Yuyan's voice trembled, but painfully interrupted her soberly: "But, what will happen to people who don't have an afterlife?" If there is no life in the afterlife, where will she be?

Ji Yuyan squeezed Jing Xun's delicate hand tightly, his heart felt like a big hole was broken, it couldn't fill it, and the blood couldn't bleed.

What will happen.Jing Xiu also read a silent sentence in his heart.

"I don't know." She stared at Ji Youyan's red eyes and said openly: "That is something that needs to be considered in the next life."

"How do you care about the next life in this life? By words, who will you be in the next life? Who will I be? The next life is a matter of the next life, and I never want to live forever. I can use the ethereal next life for a certain now, and I am content. "

How could she speak so lightly?Tears once again blurred Ji Yuyan's vision, making her unable to see Jingxuan's gentle eyebrows.She hugged Jing Xun, as if trying to embed her tightly into her body: "Why are you so stupid..."

"Axuan, how can I be worthy of you doing this for me." The warm liquid slid down Jingxuan's neck, burning Jingxuan's heart.

Jing Xiu hugged Ji Yooyan back, and felt Ji Yooyan's rapid and powerful heartbeat with her body, satisfying and distressed."Do you have to force me to say something more hypocritical?" She seemed helpless.

She asked Ji Youyan: "Then am I worth it? Is it worth your loving me like this? Whether it is the past or the present, you don't have a better and easier choice, right? Is it worth keeping me alone like this? "

Ji Yooyan seemed to hold her a little stronger, and replied with a low voice and firmness: "You are worth it."

Jing Xiu let out an "um", rubbed Ji Yuyan's shoulder with his forehead, and said seriously: "You say I am worth it, then I am worth it."

"So in the same way, don't slander yourself, let alone say sorry. If you have to say sorry, then I owe you a sorry sentence. Say, I offended you. I never asked your wishes, never asked. Are you willing to use this body to walk in this world again."

"Tell me, are you willing?" she asked solemnly.

"I can't ask for it." Ji Yuyan's nose sinks, and her distress and guilt make it hard for her to breathe. "But I don't want you to trade it for such a sacrifice."

Jing Xiu shook her head against her shoulder: "This is not a sacrifice."

"Yes, you don't need to be moved by guilt, and I won't be moved by myself." She saw clearly, "I want you to live, and everything I do is actually to satisfy my own wishes. This is what I do. The price of my own regret is not a sacrifice for you."

Her words of tenderness and relief did not make Ji Yuyan any better, and it was even like a whip dipped in salt water, drawn on her already bloody heart.

Ashamed.

Her Axun is obviously worthy of all the beauty in this world, so why did she meet herself and fall in love with her like this?

But she knew that any apology or low self-esteem would be an insult to Jingxun's love.She didn't say anything, didn't say sorry, didn't say thank you, she pressed to Jingxun's ear, every word affectionately: "I love you."

"Axiu, I love you." She was uncontrollable, stroking Jingxuan's hair, kissing Jingxuan's ears, cheeks, and touching Jingxuan's cool lips.

Jing Xiu's amber eyes turned sorrow, as if the sun pushed aside the clouds, showing a soft smile.She raised her neck, opened her lips slightly, and passionately catered to Ji Youyan's kiss.The bitterness of tears, the smell of blood, the entwined lips and tongue, tossing around, melted the loneliness and desolation of the last life in each other's body temperature.

At the end of Yan Su's kiss, Ji Youyan leaned back against the window frame, embraced Jing Xuan, clasped her ten fingers with one hand, and gently helped Jing Xuan with the other.Jing Xiu leaned in her arms, his fingertips unconsciously circled the end of Ji Youyan's hair, his eyes waved like a lazy cat.

The rain outside the window gradually stopped, and Jing Xuan's breath gradually calmed down.Ji Yuyan couldn't help but bowed his head again and pecked and kissed her forehead, nose and chin, Jing Xuan squinted his eyes with enjoyment.

She raised her head back to kiss Ji Yooyan’s beautiful jawline, and negotiated with Ji Yooyan: "Do you have anything else you want to ask about this matter? From today onwards, shall we turn over this matter?"

Ji Yuyan knows that Jingxun is considerate of her.She gathered all her emotions into her heart, and promised Jingxun: "Okay, let's have a good time now."

Jing Xiu's eyes waved and her expression relaxed a lot.

"I want to ask one last question." Ji Youyan said solemnly: "Is the inexplicable pain really not related to rebirth?"

Jing Xiu frowned and said, "In the price the master told me, this item was not mentioned. Maybe it's related, maybe it's okay." She was telling the truth.

"Since the physical examination is fine, don't worry."

Ji Yuyan was silent for a few seconds before whispering: "Okay, I see."

Jing Xiu hesitated for a moment, and said: "Then you are finished asking, it is my turn to ask."

Ji Yuyan rubbed her hair gently with his chin, and said warmly, "Well, you ask."

"Last life... Did you push "Producer for All" yourself?" In the previous life, she thought Ji Yooyan really didn't love it anymore, so she was convinced.In this life, she was convinced of Ji Youyan's deep love for her from beginning to end, and then recalled the previous life that Ji Youyan resolutely rejected the steps of reconciliation she had given, and suspected something strange.

Sure enough, Ji Yuyan was puzzled: "Why do you say'I push away'? I haven't been contacted in my previous life. This time I also asked Mr. Tao to help me win this show when I signed the contract."

Jingxun breathed for a moment, and Ji Youyan also noticed something. The two looked at each other and gritted their teeth tacitly and said: "Wang, Jun, Chan."

It's easy to think about it this way.Why did A Xiu drop himself to participate in this show?I thought I would participate.And the last one who participated in this show was another female artist from Dingfeng who was going to come. Wang Junchan also used this to excite her-"The obedient child has bread to eat".When I wanted to come to this show, I originally thought about herself. Later, because she was unwilling to accept the unspoken rules, Wang Junchan wanted to cool her down, and directly replaced herself with another female artist, and also claimed that she pushed it down?

Ji Yuyan got up in a hurry, clenching his fists.Maybe, maybe she and Jing Xun weren't like this in their previous lives.

A cold light flashed in Jing Xiu's eyes. She wrapped Ji Youyan's fist and comforted her: "Isn't there a saying in China that it doesn't report, isn't it time?"

Ji Youyan had a scrupulous mind, and Sen said coldly: "Yeah. The wicked have their own lives."

Jing Xiu stretched out his hand to touch the mountain peak between Ji Yooyan's eyebrows, Ji Yooyan instantly put away the hostility in her eyes, stretched her brows and opened her eyes.

Jing Xiu changed the subject: "According to Master Dao Kong's statement, looking back in time, there should only be memories of me holding the jade. Why do you also have it?"

Ji Youyan groaned: "It should be because I followed you a long way in the state of my soul."

Jing Xiu was surprised.

Ji Yooyan took Jing Xuan's hand and kissed him, and explained, "Actually, after I died, I seemed to... have been following you. For the first moment, I crossed the mountains, rivers and the sea to France..." What she thought , The ending disappeared, and he re-uttered: "But I don't know why, or it may be because of the road I traversed with the soul body? So after I came back, the memory of after death was very vague and scattered."

Jing Xiu noticed something she deliberately skipped and didn't mention it, and suddenly got stuck in her heart.She tightened Ji Yuyan's waist, and proactively said: "Do you have anything to ask about... the previous life I married Song Wenyan?"

Ji Yooyan missed a beat in his heart, and put Jing Xun's hand to his cheek: "A Xun, now and in the future, I will only be by your side, that's enough."

"So, if you don't want to say, I don't have anything to ask." She was sincere.