My Feelings Can Wait

Ji Yooyan's thoughtfulness made Jing Xiu's heart press. She straightened up and looked at Ji Yooyan and said softly, "I didn't want to say, then do you want to ask?"

Ji Youyan's eyes flashed, rubbing Jingxun's forehead with his forehead, and honestly said, "Yes."

Jing Xiu kissed the tip of her nose and smiled faintly, with a clear meaning.

Ji Yuyan was afraid of her misunderstanding, and sincerely said: "Axun, it is false to say that I don’t care at all, but I care because I have missed you as a bastard. And I want to know, just because of everything about you, I think know."

Jing Xiu let out an "um", bit his lip, and said concisely: "Song Wenyan and I are married, and he has a man he likes."

Ji Youyan opened his lips slightly and forgot to blink, it was an obvious consternation.Many confusing thoughts flashed through her heart, first with surprise, then joy, and finally tension and sadness.

"Why?" She recovered her voice.

Marriage is not a trifling matter. Accepting a formal marriage means putting yourself in a closet and giving up the truly happy married life you might have.This is not the life she hoped her would live after she gave up Jingxun.

Jingxuan lowered her eyelashes, and replied almost inaudibly, "Because it's not like you, who is different from you?"

Like a heavy hammer, it hit Ji Yooyan's heart fiercely, and Ji Yooyan's throat instantly became sore."Axun..."

Jing Xiu noticed something, put his arms around her neck, caressed her back, calmed her with eyes, "It's not your problem, it's my own fault. I was only irresponsible for my persistence this time in my life. But this time, it made me regret for life."

"My grandfather and Song Wenyan's grandfather had a very good personal relationship. I met him a few times when he was very young. Later, he came to Europe with his parents to explore the market. I spent a few years as classmates with him and gradually became Friends who have a good relationship. He has always liked men, because his parents have a bad relationship, his father can't control him, and his mother opened one eye and closed another, so this matter has not been put on the table until it is almost nine this year. In October, his grandfather's health had problems, and the conflict in the family was serious, and the matter was stabbed to his grandfather. His grandfather is a conservative person. He can accept Song Wenyan and act on the scene, but he cannot accept that he really wants to not marry for life. Stay with a man for a lifetime. He gave Song Wenyan an ultimatum, either to marry and inherit the family business, or to leave the house and give up the family business to his father's illegitimate child."

"His mother could not accept that her husband was robbed, and the things that belonged to her son would be robbed, crying and making trouble. Song Wenyan had no choice but to come to the studio to visit me. For the first time, she came to me to discuss whether she could talk with him Formal marriage is both a help and a cooperation. Because I was one of the suitable candidates for the business marriage that his grandfather delineated for him. I thought it was ridiculous to treat marriage as such a deceitful lie, and rejected him."

At that time, she advised Song Wenyan that it is impossible to have both fish and bear paws.Song Wenyan asked her lonely: "Why can everyone have both? People like us deserve to not have it at the same time."

Jing Xiu opened his mouth, remembering the distress that the two of them had never been able to face upright when he was dating Ji Yooyan, and couldn't answer the high-sounding words.

"For the next more than a year, Song Wenyan chose feelings and never wanted to get married. His grandfather's health was deteriorating, and he had no patience to wait any longer. He abandoned him and brought his father's illegitimate son into the company to start cultivation. Song Wenyan's mother couldn't sit still and went to the hospital with death. When I visited his mother on behalf of my family, I ran into a conversation between him and his boyfriend on the aisle. "

"They looked embarrassed, just like us back then."

Ji Youyan was full of flavours in his heart, and asked her quietly, "You can't bear it, so you decided to help him, right?"

Jing Xiu shook his head, nodded again, and said with a long look: "That's not the moment when I made up my mind. After I went in to visit his mother, I sat with him in the corridor for a long time. He kept his boyfriend on his knees. He came to his mother but was seen by his mother at the thermos barrel thrown out. When I got up to go, he suddenly asked me, "Can't you really help me?" Before I answered, I saw him turning his body sideways. Look at me, there are drops of water dripping from the side of the thermos in my hand. That was the first time I saw him cry."

"I was silent and didn't know how to answer. He turned to me and asked me,'Will Ji be back?'"

This sentence is not only stuck in Jing Xun's heart, but also in Ji Youyan's heart at this moment.Ji Yuyan lowered his head and kissed Jing Xun's arm around his neck, his chest tightness was uncomfortable.

Jing Xiu watched Ji Yuyan, his expression softened with sadness, "I understand what he meant. I didn't respond to him, nor did I respond to him, so I got up and left. After returning, I was in the music room. I was in a daze at the piano, as if thinking a lot, and thinking nothing. It was dark, I opened the memo on my mobile phone. It's the 1365th day."

"I admit it, you won't be back."

Ji Yuyan's tears suddenly fell on Jing Xun's arm with the kiss.As soon as she imagined how depressed Jing Xuan was in the dark alone, she felt painful."I made you wait for a long time."

Jing Xiu stretched out his hand and gently stroked Ji Youyan's hair, denying: "You didn't let me wait, I couldn't go out by myself."

"I sent a text message and asked Song Wenyan,'Will he come back?' Song Wenyan was stunned for two seconds, and answered me,'He will wait for me to go back.'. "He" refers to Song Wenyan's boyfriend."I don’t think you will come back. Sooner or later, you will enter the palace of marriage with another person, so what is the difference between who I am and I marry? What is the point of keeping this name? People."

"Yes, am I stupid?" Jing Xuan laughed at himself, with a shallow water in his eyes.She thought Yanyan didn't care about her anymore, but she didn't expect that this decision would become a reminder to take away Ji Yuyan's life.The pain is overwhelming.

Everyone persuaded her to be accidental and let her let herself go when they thought she was going crazy.But she still blamed herself, unable to forgive herself for indirectly killing Ji Yoon, and even angered Song Wenyan.

Since rebirth, she can no longer make friends with Song Wenyan as before.As soon as she saw him, she would think of her heartache in the last life.She is more afraid of repeating the same mistakes than anyone else.

Ji Youyan sniffed, his eye circles still glowing red, calming the atmosphere: "You are stupid."

Jing Xiu frowned dissatisfied.

Ji Yuyan stretched out his hand to wipe the wetness under her eyelashes, scratched the bridge of her nose, and said with regret: "There are obviously thousands of people better than me in this world, but you are so stupid that you hang to my crooked tree. On the neck tree."

Jing Xiu heard her describe herself as "crooked neck tree", which was a bit novel and a bit funny.She laughed with a voice of breath, and pretended to be helpless: "Maybe your tree is too lush, blocking all my sight."

Ji Yuyan followed her with a slight bend, "Then I will keep it." She touched the corner of Jing Xuan's eye with her fingertips, and watched Jing Xuan's eyes with affectionate unconsciousness.Jing Xiu's throat moved unconsciously, and his eyelashes trembled.

"Here..." Ji Yuyan's fingertips were like feathers, and they followed Jing Xun's cheeks, itchy, sweeping Jing Xuan's slender neck, and lightly touching Jing Xuan's heart, "Here... let me keep blocking , Never see others again."

Jing Xiu restrained the throbbing in his heart, and said to Qiao, "It depends on your performance."

With a smile in his eyes, Ji Yuyan dropped a kiss on Jing Xuan's heart, and then, like an uncontrollable affection, and like a worship service, Yan Ling gently kissed Jing Xuan's whole body, and kissed Jing Xun's ankle.

The senses of Jing Xiu's whole body seemed to be moved by her, and she was panting straight.Seeing that Ji Yuyan was still going down, she drew her calves to avoid, and said in a low voice: "Enough."

Ji Yuyan quickly grabbed her slender ankle, rubbed her fingertips gently, causing Jing Xiu to shudder: "Not enough."

She lowered her head and wanted to kiss Jingxuan's white instep with a pious gesture, but Jingxuan reached out and clasped her chin, reiterating softly but firmly: "Enough."

Ji Yuyan understood her persistence, mist filled her eyes, and kissed her palm.

She held Jing Xun’s head and lay down while pressing Jing Xun herself. Jing Xun thought she was going to do something, but Ji Youyan just put her arms around her waist, causing her to turn over and press on her. Body.

Afraid of the tenderness, Jing Xiu stood up and looked at her incomprehensibly. Ji Youyan was also looking at her, with tenderness in his eyes and bright as stars.

"Axun, in this world, there would be no Ji Yuyan without Jingxun."

Jing Xiu's heart trembled and wanted to ask her what she meant, when he heard Ji Yoo say coaxing her and begging her softly, "So, Jing Xiu will live a long life."

Jing Xun was startled, his heart softened and soft, he relaxed the strength of his hands, and buried his face in Ji Youyan's neck."Yes." She promised her.

Ji Youyan felt much calmer and embraced her whole world contentedly.

"Axun, I will make you worth it." She promised in her heart.

I was too tired last night. When I woke up, the mood swings were too great. Jing Xiu was physically exhausted. He lay on Ji Youyan's body and chatted with her without a word, and fell asleep without knowing it.

The room was quiet, the rain outside the window slowly and completely stopped, and the sun peeked out from behind the clouds, and the gentle light passed through the glass and spilled on the embracing two.

Jing Xiu frowned slightly in his sleep.

Ji Yuyan was afraid of waking Jing Xuan and couldn't get up to pull the curtains, so he grabbed the side pillow with his free hand and stretched out his arm to block the light that spilled on Jing Xun's cheek.

With a heavy heart, she closed her eyes, and slowly outlined the face of Master Dao Kong in her mind.