mocking, cursing, beating, hurting, degrading.
The act of attacking and hurting others in bad faith. It's the first time I've ever known how terrible the act of executing and enjoying it on someone I can't even fight back is on my own receiving side.
Until then, it was the side I would do. Happy to hurt others. I enjoyed watching him take the pain, watching him endure it. From now on, I can't help but curse myself for doing something terrible.
What I did and what I was done remains traumatic in Akiko Morui. That is reproduced every time I sleep a few days in the form of a nightmare.
I know that even if I ask for help, I don't have anyone to help me. My beloved father and mother. But that's because I knew it wasn't there.
Knowing the truth, Akiko asks her parents for help. Those who used to be servants, coming after us in the darkness. Those who were scattered and tormented turned to rebellion with great rejoicing, and this time they tried to persuade the group about Akiko, and chased him around.
I found my parents in the darkness and ran over with joy, but Akiko approached. No, my parents' bodies collapsed into a meltdown. That's a sight I've seen in real life.
Several hands reach out, grabbing Akiko's body and dragging him down. Beating, kicking, twisting, cursing, mocking and laughing at Akiko.
Akiko has nothing. No one. When he was desperate with accepting solitude, a light arose in Akiko's hand.
A blade that glows dull. It did have a heart. Akiko did find that out. It conveyed my feelings about Akiko. Akiko clenched the pattern with deep joy and relief and was slashed by servants approaching her.
By the knife in his hand, Akiko's fate changed. I know where to cut it due to my willingness to pass it off from a small machete. At least when the target is a man, the aim is the groin. That's what the knife wants.
It should have been just a prey to ravage, but I see Akiko, who has turned into a beast and fought back, and the servants let fear draw their faces and flee.
But by the power given to him by a small knife, he could hardly escape from Akiko, who had much more physical function than an ordinary man.
By killing without one left, the nightmare ends. Nightmares always end the same. Same ending as reality.
Akiko wakes up. On both hands, a small knife is firmly gripped over the chest.
"Thanks...... You protected me today."
Raise the knife in your hand while you sleep, and smile.
It will be a force that protects Akiko as well in reality, and in the nightmares I occasionally see, I will always show up at the end to save Akiko. This wave of unnamed little machetes had become the home of Akiko's heart today.
Every time I wake up, Akiko Morui feels it. I thought I'd never get out of that hall.
And the servants who were taking care of themselves, that not a single one. That I killed them all.
I realize that the routine until then, which seemed to have been confirmed, is nowhere at the earliest.
I have to do my own thing from what to what. He used to have his body washed in the bath, as well as meals carried to his mouth, and even brushed his teeth.
They were terribly hard and annoying, but at the same time fresh and had a pleasant fullness. That's all I felt alive.
"Morning, Akiko."
When you go to the dining room, a lily in white crust greets you in the morning, but Akiko ignores you.
In the seat next to the lily, a boy with a round face sits on his head. He's about the same age as Akiko, like in his late teens. A monkey-like child is the impression I saw from Akiko. His name is Saito Platinum Taro.
"Akiko, I have to say something about a morning greeting. I don't know how to behave like that in a position where the lilies are having their clothes and lodgings covered."
Platinum Taro pays attention in a gentle tone, but Akiko still doesn't respond.
I don't always ignore it, but there's no way it's an intimate greeting. For Akiko, the lily is clearly an enemy.
"To undo the story, what did Taro Platinum think of that work concept yesterday?
"You're a human bike. The wheels are the wheels that connect the heads where the neck grew from the mouth. Pedals are hands. Saddles are asses. I think that idea of liding the anus, because the saddle is the ass, is really great. The boulder is a lily. I want it to happen."
Platinum Taro says with a smile. Lily exhales as small as she is frightened.
"Oh? I guess so. I still suspected it might be a mediocre idea, but that's what you're told."
"I don't know what the word Booyu means, but at the point of Lily's idea, it's definitely wonderful."
Platinum Taro says with a smile. Lily turns her gaze to Akiko. Akiko shakes her head small to the side.
"Actually, human bicycles today are the idea of Hate Junko, not mine. Even though I didn't say so much in the middle of the conversation, I wonder what it would be like to compliment myself on thinking it was my idea."
Platinum Taro's smile freezes.
Ariko was disgusted with this boy's loyalty and delusion to Lily every time he saw it, but even Lily looked somewhere extra.
"Aside from swearing allegiance to me, I'm just not glad that I'm even flattered, thoroughly drummed and Jesus man. Akiko, who is revolting against me, entertains me much better."
"I'm sorry. Dear Lily, Refinement -"
"I'm not here to entertain my mom."
On the way to Platinum Taro's apology, Akiko pinches his mouth.
"Alas, I leave Mr. Akiko here on the assumption that you will entertain me, so if you no longer entertain me, it's already a payment box at that point, right?
Akiko comes with a cock to the lily tale. But swallow it immediately.
Until now, when it came to mind at all, the mundane things made me immediately grumpy, and it was the nature that caused the eclampsia, but now when I was about to develop the eclampsia, I remembered the days when the servants who were pointing at the spearhead of that anger continued to attack me and reflexively indulge in it.
I haven't told anyone about it. I don't even know lilies. It is an intense trauma that has occurred in the sub-rare and is wedged at the same time.
"That entertainment, like Taro Platinum there, should I entertain you in conversation? You're not, are you? Don't you want me to do something? That's why you gave me this, right?
Ashiko takes out the knife she always carries without letting go of her skin.
"That's true. But you did say now that you didn't have the will to entertain me, didn't you? Then you won't do anything for me, will you?
"Correction then. My mom uses me. I'm going to use my mom, too. I hope so."
It was Akiko who says to throw, but this is for real.
Only to enjoy the life of each person, Lily created a being called Akiko Morui. Lilies are the root of all evil. Against that lily, Akiko thinks he will eventually seek revenge.
But before that, Akiko couldn't help but live alone and knew little about the world. The only thing I've gained knowledge of in my life so far is about TV and books.
"Oh? How does Akiko intend to use me? No, what do you want to do?"
Asked Lily, Akiko disappeared with a grin. It was the eclampsia that stopped me from happening, but I grew up as a lady of boxed daughters, so I put my emotions straight on the table.
"I don't want to tell you. I would definitely laugh if I told you. My mom's got a bad personality."
"Is it boring to be laughed at? I'd love to hear that."
"Look, look, look, that's what's wrong with my personality"
I just want to know more about the world. I want to see a lot of things. I want to get to know a lot of people. I want to have a lot of experiences. That was Akiko's immediate aim, and a tangible desire.