Possessing Nothing

“Smile... ”

What kind of face am I making right now? Lee could tell without looking in the mirror.

Tears have not stopped flowing, and facial muscles are twitching like cramps.

“There's no way that's... going to work. ”

Even when the miner died, even when the tetrarch died.

Lee always felt like this. I never wanted to feel like this again.

It's been a while since then, and despite the many incidents, I always feel terrible when I think about their deaths.

Why did I do nothing?

Why I was helpless.

Why am I, why am I the only one alive?

I set up hatred in despair, self-esteem, and regret.

“You… can't ……. ”

My voice trembled. I had to admit. It was also natural.

More than a miner, more than a quadriplegic. Lee Sung-min valued his relationship with Heju.

Ever since I met Heju in the sleeping forest, he has always been connected to the consciousness of the straight people.

I shared what Lee saw, felt, and all that with him.

Even the worries that Lee Sung-min couldn't tell others, he felt and advised me.

Heju was a friend who kept her by her side while understanding everything about Lee Sung-min.

It was a teacher who pointed out the shortcomings of Lee Sung-min and took care of the endangered spirit.

He was also a father who knew and empathized with rational people better than anyone else.

“No.”

Heju shakes his head.

“I have to go. I have to go. For you, for me. It's pointless for you to ask me not to leave now. It's a quick difference, and no matter how late it is, it's only going to be a little late. ”

“There must be... some other way. ”

“No, I don't. ”

Heju insists. His eyes point to the landscape of consciousness. The world that was not well seen by the dark fog was now well visible.

Lee Sung-min's shoulders trembled. Originally, this world was a white world with nothing but mist.

And as Heju disappeared…… the world was fading.

“Don't cry. ”

Heju once again said.

“You know I can't help it. It's so... old. It should have been gone ten years ago. ”

Lee Sung-min covered his face with both hands.

In a short moment, I thought a lot. I understand that I can't help it.

What if you were to transfer the spirit of madness to another body?

It's too much.

I asked him if he would try it against the empty Eine's body, but he said it was impossible at that time.

“There's no way I can stay in any form. ”

Heju who felt the heart of Lee Sung-min said with a bloody smile.

“I didn't want to take the body of the girl... I just didn't have a choice. ”

“... Yes. ”

Don't cry. Smile.

Lee Sung-min muttered to himself like that. I understood and convinced that I had no choice.

Then I should have laughed. If this moment is the last time with Heju, he should smile without crying as he wishes.

I covered my face with both hands.

I wiped the tears that were pouring down without stopping. I empowered my cramping cheek muscles.

I forcibly raise my trembling tail to the top.

“You're fucking ugly. ”

Heju laughed as he looked down at Lee Sung-min. Lee Sung-min felt that smile was trembling.

Pretending to be nice, he was shaking, even though he was laughing and rambling.

Lee Seong-min staggered and woke up. I tried to calm down as I took a deep breath. It doesn't work. The tears I wiped are coming back.

“Stop squeezing. ”

“…… that can't be right……. ”

Lee Sung-min replied with a powerless voice. Huzhou vanishes. The uninvited have been occupying a corner of consciousness for decades.

In the future, there will be no need to be conscious and embarrassed about the existence of negligence when thinking or acting.

Whenever you feel desperate, you won't have to seek advice and comfort from the existence of the illusion.

You don't have to ignore the nonsense thrown by Heju.

It was horrible.

Losing someone, every time I'm alone....

In fact, he was not alone. Whenever I did, Heju was always with Lee Sung-min.

But not now. Now, Seong-min is really alone.

I'm afraid of it.

I felt like I was going to break down. It was not because the spirit of rational people was particularly strong that they had not been desperate.

It was because I was confident that I would not be alone in that desperate situation.

Don't despair. There was always a hunger to speak from the depths of consciousness.

“From now on, you're on your own. ”

Heju said.

Lee Sung-min forcefully laughed.

“There may be someone around you, but in the end, you are alone. Like this old man...... in your head, there will be no such thing as cursing, joking, listening, and speaking to you. ”

“I know.”

Lee Sung-min swallowed a big breath. He wiped his tears again. Surprisingly, when I fully accepted everything, I didn't shed any more tears.

Heju looked at Lee Sung-min's face and said he was cool. He looks down at his halfway deceased body.

“I've lived a long life. ”

I was born as a southern monster. Most of his life was fighting, and Huju always survived and won and ate his opponent.

Strength grew, and at some point, a monster named Heju was called the southern nightmare.

Even that mighty vampire queen dared not face hunger, and the numerous outsiders gathered did not invade the realm of idleness.

Even the dragons that were left in the world did not fly in the forest of the haze.

“I've lived a long life. I've been through a lot. I also experienced a variety of pleasures. But…… I had more fun with you than I did when I was living in my body. ”

Huzhou sincerely said so.

“If I had met you when I was alive, well... … maybe I wouldn't have been as close to you or valued you as I am now. I was a little screwed up back then. This death of character is caused by your body disappearing and your soul remaining, parasitic to your consciousness and understanding you a lot. ”

Speaking of which, Heju giggled.

“If this old man had met you before, he would have punched and killed a jerk like you. ”

“I know.”

It was a joke. Half sincere. At that, Lee Sung-min smiled. My heart was empty.

At this moment, the body was continually disappearing, and the fog that filled the world of consciousness was fading away.

“It's good to see you. ”

Heju said.

“I'm glad I'm a fool like you to be followed. I liked that you weren't perfect. I'm glad you're full of inferiority. ”

It reminded me of the philanthropist who said that he was good at trying.

“You... were my friend, teacher, and father. ”

“Is that the kind of guy who threatens to stick me in the butt? ”

“That's different. ”

“Kuhahaha! You son of a bitch. Let me promise you this. Later, I mean...... if the fight with Xeniella is over. You go in the can and come out. Feel how this old man felt. ”

“Yes, I promise. ”

Just as I didn't think Lee Sung-min would answer without thinking about it, Heju looked surprised. His eyes twitch and he laughs out loud.

“Yes, I promise. Later...... if you come to this old man's place, tell him how you feel. It would be a good story to use as a drink. ”

Huzhou raised his head to say so. He saw a distant path beyond Lee Sung-min's shoulders. He faced it and said to Lee Sung-min:

“Don't despair. ”

Heju takes a step.

“Don't break it. ”

I didn't stop.

“Don't die. You made a promise to this old man. I will come to the world where I am someday. ”

Heju passed by Lee Sung-min's side. Lee Seong-min pressed his chest with his hands.

The fog that filled the world of consciousness gathers in one place. The fog envelops me.

He was walking towards the unknown. Lee Sung-min, standing behind the heedless back, saw the faint path he was on.

“I liked meeting you. ”

Lee Sung-min muttered to his back in a trembling voice. He shrugged his shoulders and laughed.

“My... friend, teacher, and father. ”

Lee Sung-min tried to walk to the back of his heedlessness without even knowing it. At that moment, Heju shook his head.

“Don't come. ”

Lee Sung-min's feet stopped.

“You shouldn't be here yet. We... have a lot of work to do. You said you'd never been happy. I'm struggling in this shitty world now, but someday...... if all this is over... You'll have enough fun and you won't be late. ”

“Can I... go? ”

Will that day ever come? The question was answered with a big smile.

“Of course I can come. This man trusts you. ”

The road looks far away.

You can see the back of the forgetfulness approaching that path.

Lee Sung-min stretched out his hands toward the liquor. I saw a lot of things. Lee Sung-min didn't know what he was making, but he could tell his face.

A smile filled with anticipation. Heju was heading down the road, and the King of Chang and the tetrarch were walking down that road.

Lee Seong-min felt her heart tremble and gave her strength to both eyes. I thought I'd wiped my tears last, but tears were flowing again.

“Take care. ”

Heju opens his arms. Suddenly, he had a new arm. Lee Sung-min felt the existence of the forgetfulness disappear in his consciousness.

At this moment, he was heading into a wider, new world, not this tiny world of consciousness.

“See you later. ”

I made tears pour out in front of my eyes. Lee Sung-min saw the fickle figure shaking in the prowling tears.

The fog that gathered scatters. It was no longer a landscape in the conscious world, but completely extinct.

Hungry, barefoot, pushes his foot out toward the road. I was shaking heavily in my drunkenness.

Like you're not there, like you're not there.

Like a scarecrow.

Like the name deficiency.

“Hahahaha!”

A loud laugh shook the world of consciousness. A storm is brewing. The fog spreads in all directions.

The shape of the road came to mind clearly. At the beginning of that path, the wheat rush is no longer conscious.

He truly believed. Someday, Lee Sung-min must come to this world.

He will never die, nor will he despair, nor will he be broken.

Huzhou believed it.

That's why I don't look back. I'm unconscious. I'm not naive. He's going to meet someday. What's wrong with him?

“Hahahaha!”

In hundreds of years, his soul was free. Even though the body disappeared a long time ago, it was meaningless in this world.

The Temple of Manchuria reached by these monsters was a pointless place for life and death. Huju empowered the bridge that stepped on the path, feeling a vibrant feeling of liberation.

He starts running a crooked road, blowing up the Hengcheon Mine.

Faster than a slowwalker, faster than a crawler, faster than a rester, faster than anyone else.

The feeling of carelessness drifts away.

The sound of idle laughter becomes distant.

No regrets, that's the smile.

I didn't hear any grumbling. Hanging was ugly and selfish. I knew I had to.

I understood that Heju was sad and looking forward to this day. Lee looked around the empty world.

The world was full of chaos when the fog disappeared. All sorts of memories mixed up, and he felt emptiness. He looks far away, now chasing an invisible hallucination.

“... Yes. ”

The haze has not vanished. Heju left, and Lee definitely saw the world where Sae Maestro and Chang Wang went.

Perhaps one day, even a rational person can go to that world. Therefore, we should not feel sorry for the loss of hunger.

He wished for himself to go to that world, neither dead nor extinct.

His last burst of laughter was filled with liberation and joy.

I'm fine, 'cause that's what I was saying.

So, I'm fine.

We have to make sure it's okay.

Seong-min slowly turned around.

To keep my promise to Heju.