Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

"If my contract with that girl is broken, can I leave the rest to you?

"... do it, for a reason."

Moistening her lips with her tongue, Subaru faces the pack ignoring her throat's complaining thirst.

I don't see the look on Pack's face in the crystal stone that doesn't show up here. But the vortex of emotion in his words makes Subaru believe that it is not a word spun in a light-hearted way.

I'm just talking about a contract.

It is also, above all, a covenant exchanged between the Spirit and the Spiritualist that we attach importance to it.

Words that affirm it to be 'broken' unilaterally - the sincerity of which is not easily inferred from Subaru.

"The covenant between Emilia and you... finally, the arrangement between the Spirit and the covenant, right? Making it break naturally means there's a corresponding penalty, right?

"Of course, you are."

"If my imagination is correct, the contractor is a man of power from the Spirit by keeping his covenant. If that contractor can't keep his contract, of course, the Spirit loses his name to lend strength to the contractor.... I mean, let them break the contract '

"There's a connection between me and Leah that could lead to a loss of connection."

Let Subaru's reasoning be admitted by Pack without denial or correction.

But affirmed. What that means...

'I mean I won't be able to help you... Emilia loses her ability to fight. It's just one girl, and it's gonna mean we're gonna get rid of her.'

'Isn't that not very relevant to you? Because you're the one who doesn't want Leah to fight, whether she has the strength or not. I don't know what Leah herself thinks, but she seemed to be recessed in the policy mistakes around there.'

"What... that's for sure. But it's different from my sentiments and that. The power to fight is not fundamental to the problem, as you say. In this case, the important thing is… what Emilia would look like if you were gone '

The absence of the pack is the same situation for Emilia, who lost the pillar of her heart.

If what you said to Pac earlier is true, still deep down in her mind she realizes that Pac isn't really asleep. Fine connections are not disconnected.

However, even in such a barely bonded state, hunted down Emilia is so grumpy. If you don't leave the side, you will speak, so much so that you will depend wholeheartedly on Subaru.

If that's what you really mean, and you ever get disconnected from the pack...

"Emilia is no stranger to losing her mind's equilibrium on the spot. That would be a three-finger sight I don't want to see, even for you. What are you gonna do? '

'I don't think so either. I'm only going to push back that it's going to be the best shape for Leah. I can't and I can't do what she doesn't want.'

You want Emilia to cut you off?

'No, Subaru. The loss of my contract is just a by-product for Leah's wishes to come true. Leah's hope now is undoubtedly to get over the graveyard' trials'. You don't have to doubt that, and you can trust him. '

In that regard, I do not doubt even Subaru.

Even if Emilia believes Puck's hypothesis that she can't face her own past, and that she's repeatedly frustrated the 'trials' by continuing to look at the false past -

Subaru believes more than anyone else that she is not the owner of an inferior nature that only tries to 'pretend' to overcome the obstacles that stand in front of her.

The affirmation of Subaru's mind should not have been passed on to the pack in the form of words. But instead, as it conveyed Subaru's mind as it were, the pack slightly dropped the sound of the thought to

'I do think Leah would be disturbed if she found out I was gone. It's already, I'm sure, crying like a child, calling, to the point of becoming unscrupulous'

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'But, you know, I think that's fine. I think on the front side of my mind that I'm not here, and I know on the back of my mind that I'm here, that's the unnatural state of affairs. Understand that I'm not here, both on the front and back of my mind... for the first time since I ran out of easy shackles to seal the past, Leah can face her heart. "

The words of the pack contained thoughts of silence but a sense of generosity.

It was overflowing with devotion: it was mercy, sadness, joy, and above all, it did not mind devoting everything to the loving.

'Um, to face myself... to lose my connection to you and let me move on?

'Yeah, you are. I'm sure there are a lot of painful things to do, but I believe Leah could put up with that. "

'On your side, you won't be able to stay. Aren't you worried? You don't think I want to protect your daughter all the time because she's a bottomless lover and she's always behind me?'

Subaru himself was beginning to not even know what he was talking about.

Puck's offer should correctly invite Subaru to unfold as expected if it begins to produce the results it wanted. As Puck also said, Emilia's ability to fight has nothing to do with Subaru being distressed to keep her on the battlefield.

So Subaru welcomes the pack's suggestions, even though there is no reason to try to stop them.

I thought you weren't comfortable with me being on Leah's side these days.

'You're not wrong about that idea.... With all the relationships that have been going on here for a while, your stock price in me sucks, and it's not that easy to go up. With one choice, like sacrificing for Emilia, I can wipe away the distrust I've recruited so far.'

"Sounds a lot like it, it's just gonna make me a little sad"

"But"

There is no mistake in how we impress each other. Now Subaru doesn't think he can peddle Puck's words or easily change his bad impression of him.

There is no falsehood in the words spoken. However,

"With you gone, the grieving figure of Emilia comes to my attention. I know you're the biggest, most painfully, to Emilia. That's you, so I... '

――――

Words don't last, only obscure thoughts continue to blow up in Subaru. Puck also kept silent in his thoughts and quietly waited for this vague will to take shape.

However, the more in a hurry, the more uncertain the answer will lose its certainty and move into uncertainty.

"I know, I know you..."

"The only way I can make a decision like this is because of your presence, Subaru."

Prior to Subaru's words that don't get cohesive, the voice of a puffy squeaky pack. Face up to whisper directly into the cranium, Subaru glimpses the green crystal stone.

"You're right, I care about Leah more than anything. I want to keep an eye on that kid all the time, and I want to help you by the side. And when I'm not around, it's better for her, and she decides so, I still feel the same way."

"Then why..."

I wonder if it's because you're here.

――――

Secondly, Subaru is dominated by the feeling of holding his breath.

'In this place... Yeah, in this world, you're the only one who can risk his life for Leah, just like me. In all the time you've spent so far, you've proven that. Leah too... except for me, you would be the one I would rely on the most. That's for sure. You can trust me.'

'Well, even if... I'm not as powerful as you, or as overwhelming as I can be to forcefully blow the obstacle that stands in front of her. All I can do is hold my head together and bother me, let me spit it out... to that extent. You can count on me to do this later. "

'I know you're mistaken, but I'm not asking you to replace me. I can only do what I can. And vice versa, and that's where I expect you to help Leah with the only part that you can do. "

To the silent Subaru, the pack overlaps even more without stopping the words.

Block Subaru's escape and don't let him lose the time for a decision for Emilia.

"Assuming I'm gone, Leah is much stronger than you. That's definitely not what you meant by 'strength'. But as you know, she's weak. Definitely in what I call the" weakness "part. That's why I want you to support that weakness."

"... what happens to you when your contract is broken and you're disconnected"

"I owe it to my passing with Leah to make me live like this. If that connection is broken, I can't always stay alive until I materialize.... but my continued materialization also means eating up my surrounding mana indefinitely. If you see what I really am, Subaru will be surprised. '

The 'true appearance' to be the mouth of the pack would be when it became that staring up giant. The pinnacle of a four-legged beast, an angry snowstorm beast. The beast of the end.

Well, if it has to be in that state all the time, there's no way that it can continue to exist.

'So you... you mean you're gonna disappear?

'It's not the same as disappearing. Before I signed with Leah, all I had to do was go back to being small. Deep edge for me...... I guess it'll be the Ellior Great Forest. So I think I'm going to sleep in something that depends on me and wait for when I'm going to be awake'

"Getting woken up... what?"

'Of course, it's in Leah. - Here, the contract between me and that kid ends. But if there's another time when that kid needs a new contract and he chooses the Spirit for that other guy... he'll pick me again, I'm sure. Yes, I believe you.'

I felt told in a sunny voice, Subaru was breathtaking.

There are no anxiety or other shards in Puck's voice when he tries to make a decision that he may disappear into. I'm sure that the voice would not have caused anxiety, independently of the fact that his natural personality is optimistic.

For him, it's beyond question that Emilia will choose herself again.

Emilia losing her contract with Pack and having to look at her past. I have not imagined that she would not be able to accept the past and would be crushed.

Emilia gets over the past and chooses herself when she asks for a contract again.

In the pack, that's a decision.

Without questioning Emilia's strength, without questioning Emilia and the accumulation of time she has wanted to spend, he can therefore choose the option of disconnecting himself from her.

――――

That's a dazzling, strong and stiff bond for Subaru, who's just shaking.

The deep love and trust in Emilia is what makes Pack's steel heart.

"You're gonna push me to console Emilia to mess with it."

So Subaru shouts that in agony, feeling like he's going to hit a grudge. Take that. Puck is like a throat rattling, grinning-inclusive tone,

'I really think that's all that's painful. But... I'm keeping my precious daughter, so I want you to get over it with me.'

"... admit to being Emilia's partner in the dark about me"

"If I turn you off here now, I'll have to rethink all the problems."

"Interesting return is not the best, you fucking cat!!

Subaru falls just a little short of rapprochement with radical remarks.

It was easier to excuse the depth of Pack's thoughts on Emilia, but not just a little, but to the point of exchanging things before they were able to groove.

And I broke my contract with Emilia, and I've heard him leave this place, and I've come up with something. If, hypothetically, that works - there aren't many betting scales, they should lean.

'I get your outlook. There's something subtly disturbing about whether or not you actually carry it the way you want... but there's a strange face there, and I'm supposed to be able to help guide you, too.'

"How does it feel to manipulate the consciousness of a girl you like"

'Don't because guilt will crush you. And if Emilia really understands everything... after it's over, she'll realize she's been set up like that.'

"If that happens, you and I could hate each other for complicity. Did you notice that?

'That's right. Don't wash it with your father's laundry!' Cause that's not the same vector that you and I hate about adolescent girls. '

If dislike of the pack is only a family matter, then dislike of Subaru is a more deep-rooted and deadly part. If we speak in good faith, Emilia will understand.

Even if I'm convinced of my sincerity, Emilia can't feel good if she finds out I've been induced to be good about my heart. - I'm sure you won't forgive me for that.

"Now, right. - I've made her cry over and over again, and I'm not ready to carry it anymore."

――――

"Conditions, swallowed, pack. I'll wipe your ass. If Emilia's going to cry down tomorrow morning... it's in my arms'

'- Yeah. So, shall I ask you? It's going to push a lot of things after this.'

Get a slight shame on Subaru for accepting his suggestion.

With one eye on the sound of it, Subaru prefaced, "Then,"

You have room to consider my proposal, too?

"Suggestions"

'Yes, a suggestion. Don't worry about it. Just like you and me, so that there will be a future that will be good for Emilia, so that we can act together. "

Beating himself in the chest, Subaru turned to a pack expressing his affirmation in silence, he said.

'I have a few things I want to ask you and a few things I want to try after I hear that. - Let's not take long because Emilia might wake up'