Still, Wait For Me

Milan City's top business districts seem to be prepared just to show off and enjoy themselves, lacking the atmosphere of normal life.

When Li Waner was going to continue walking down the street with Xu Tiansheng, Xu Tiansheng asked her if there were any neighborhoods that belonged to everyday life. Li Waner said, of course there are. Would you like to see them?

Xu Tinsheng said, "I want to see you settle down your life. Watch you settle down, then I'll go. ”

Li Waner was silent for a moment. When he raised his head, he smoked his nose tip and said: "Don't pretend to be nice to me. Well, I'll hold your hand, and I've been thinking all night that at least it shouldn't be like an aunt. ”

As she spoke, she bent her arm through Xu Yanzheng's arm and held it tight.

“How can you be like an aunt," Xu Tinsheng said with a smile, "Auntie, you are too confident. ”

Li Waner twisted a drum inside Xu Tiansheng's arm. The position was easily painful and painful. Xu Tiansheng shouted out, surrounded by a group of old outside eyes, and then laughed in good faith.

“Looks more like a couple, at least that's what they think," Xu Tiansheng said, "Then hold on a second. I'll have to carry something for you later. Is that what men do when women are shopping? ”

Li Waner thought about it. It seemed that everyone else did, but she didn't, so she said, "Okay. ”

Li Waner had stayed in China for a while before, and had just moved away. They actually had a lot to buy. They even bought a bag of rice and a few jars of Chinese soy sauce.

Xu Tiancheng's suit coat is in Li Waner's hand. This is the only thing Li Waner has, and Xu Tiancheng's hand, arms, shoulders, is full of things.

He could see that Li Waner on the road, very happy, had a feeling of happiness.

The two of them returned to Li Waner's new home at around 9: 00 p.m., nearly 10: 00 p.m.

When she arrived in front of her door, Li Wan-er made a fresh push.

Xu Tiansheng went directly into the bathroom after putting things down.

Li Waner found a hanger to hang his suit coat in her hand. She carefully tried to flatten the suit as if it would hang here for a long time.

She forgot that the man wouldn't actually stay.

When finishing the clothes, Li Waner's fingertips touched the ticket outside the pocket with the suit built in. She hesitated for a moment and took the ticket out.

15 November 2004, tomorrow afternoon, Milan, Italy - Paris, France.

He's leaving.

At this moment, his heart seemed blocked. Li Waner suddenly realized that he was determined to bite his teeth and cut them so hard that he still seemed to be no match for this little piece of paper.

Fearing that she would surrender and give up her insistence, she was anxious to speak to Xu Tinsheng and express her determination not to yield.

When Li Waner saw Xu Tiansheng, he was standing on a stool, removing the old light bulb in the bathroom and putting it on the small window sill. Then he took off the small carton bitten in his mouth, opened it, and took out a new light bulb,...

“What, is the... bulb broken? When did you buy the new one? ”

Li Waner forgot to say what she was going to say and asked what was normal.

“I tried all your lights this afternoon, everything else is fine, and this can't be said to be broken, it just flashes occasionally, I'm afraid it won't be long. I just wanted to change it for you first, or you wouldn't be sure if I left. You said lights? I bought them just after you. ”

Since there was no electric switch, Xu Tiansheng put the new bulb on carefully while speaking normally.

The light was on, the light warmed gently, he looked, clapped his hands, jumped off the stool, put the old bulb in the box again, and then threw it in the trash can. Wipe the stool on your feet and place it against the wall.

This is just the most normal scene of life, but Li Waner has been watching and getting deeply involved. Because this way, it seems like life, she wants, has him in life.

“Turns out he tried all the lights here this afternoon...” Wan Li thought.

Dependence and love are actually already planted in the heart, and then it's like Fujiman growing wild, getting tighter and tighter.

This man in front of him once showed the cute side of his rogue. Li Waner was on him, recovering the feeling he wanted but lost as a young girl, falling in love with a passion, and the subtlety of his heartbeat.

Then there was his maturity and strength, which made her feel dependent and protected again.

Just like that day, when she saw his name appearing in the corner, she felt at ease and knew she didn't have to support herself in exchange for him.

And now this scene, the simplest part of the tenderness, is actually the one that makes her desperate.

Li Waner is willing to be the client of this man, even if he loses himself for this, be a wise and quiet family woman, serve her man, cook, wash clothes, hand him slippers when he comes home, hang his clothes for him,...

She would make him look so nice every day, he would look good, she could sit at home and wait for him to come back and imagine herself envied by everyone and then start planning the clothes he will be wearing tomorrow,...

Except…

Third, outside, mistress... these words have broken Li Waner's moral bottom line. She has never lived a rude life, how can she accept it?

And he, did not give her any cushioning space and time, the process of water to the tunnel... so direct, aggressive... Li Waner even got a little upset because of this.

Xu Tinsheng came out and saw her stunned. He reached out and swayed in front of her and said, “Li Waner, what's wrong? ”

Li Waner said in a hurry: "No, it's okay. ”

“Well, after living alone for so long, shouldn't it be a problem to take care of yourself? Take care of yourself in the future," Xu Tiansheng said, "See what else I can do. You'll have to pay for the workers later. ”

"No," said Li Waner. Xu Tiansheng... "

Xu Tinsheng said, “What's wrong? ”

"I don't know why," said Li Waner. "Sometimes I feel like you're not 20 years old and you feel like you're as big as me. ”

“... you're right. I'm actually a little older than you.” Xu Tiansheng smiled.

Li Waner thought Xu Tingsheng was laughing at her. Old woman, aunt, old cow, she had heard the words from him. It was really bad.

She glanced at Xu Tiansheng, went into the bathroom and twisted a towel and gave it to him. She looked at the watch. She was a little nervous and said, “It's 10: 00, and there's still time... shall I cook you some porridge? Are you hungry? ”

After walking all night, carrying so many things, Xu Tiansheng felt a little hungry. Plus, he hasn't eaten rice in two days. He doesn't seem to be able to eat it in the next few days...

Plus, it's not that easy to leave someone behind. “Fucking... still so pretty and so silly and so bullied. ”

“Okay.” Xu Tiansheng said.

Li Waner entered the kitchen and Xu Tiansheng sat on the couch in the small living room.

The small kitchen is not completely closed. Xu Tiansheng can be seen inside by sitting in the living room. She sees Li Waner focusing on her busy figure. This feels like Xiaofan the fairy, washing your hands for soup, it will actually be very accomplished.

Xu Tiansheng saw her throw her long hair aside, her hands together close, group up, and plug the wooden beard in.

Then she washed her hands, opened the lid with one hand, drove away the fog with one hand to see if the porridge in the pan was cooked.

It seems that this is the life that 31-year-old Wan Li should have, such scenes and the flavors that come out of the pot, including her divinity and demeanor, a calm, simple, but warm life.

When the two people sat drinking porridge, Li Waner never looked at Xu Tiansheng. Even if she spoke, Xu Tiansheng asked a question, and she just answered.

Li Waner was actually angry, “Why can he pretend to be so irrelevant and normal? ”

This normal state of Xu Tiansheng, for Li Waner, is like a silent gait, do the most heinous thing in the warmest way, ask her to give in.

Li Waner ate very slowly, but eventually she would finish it. Then she cleaned the table and Xu Tiansheng washed the dishes...

Then she made tea again, then... finally nothing to do, Li Waner had to go back to Xu Tiansheng to face that problem.

Take a deep breath, Li Waner said: "Xu Tiansheng...”

Xu Tiansheng said, "Hmm? ”

Li Waner said: "I, I will not be any lover. You, neither can you. ”

After that, she looked at him with a big pair of eyes, maybe showing determination, maybe expecting some unexpected reaction.

Xu Tinsheng was stunned, but understandably, in recent times, Li Waner may have been tempted and coerced too much, and herself… did so much to do and shouldn't have done, and the impulse in that regard was not not unpresented, so she would have such thoughts and fears, which is actually normal.

“That's good.” With embarrassment, Xu Tiansheng couldn't stay any longer and got up and said:

“Then I'll go back to the hotel and I'll leave Milan tomorrow afternoon. If there's anything else I can do, call me before noon tomorrow. Also, take good care of yourself in the future, if you meet good people, don't be alone. ”

After that, Xu Tiansheng got up somewhat lonely and took off his suit coat hanging on the side of the door and opened the door and left.

Li Waner saw Xu Tinsheng take the suit coat she had just carefully hung up a while ago, as if... he had emptied the whole house, yes, it was empty, including her heart.

Li Wan-er stood up and walked to the door.

Xu Tiansheng pushed the door back and looked at her and said: “Li Waner, I will ignore you in the future, be sure to take care of yourself. Don't be so useless, so stupid. ”

After that, he paused and finally had nothing to say. Close the door and leave.

“Obviously, I made you breakfast tomorrow morning. Are you gambling if you're rejected? Aren't you overbearing? Not... on the wall, why this time..."

Li Waner mumbled at the already closed door.

……

Late at night in this old neighborhood is like the calmest sea surface of the night.

The wind was a little cold, Xu Tiansheng walked down the street, put his coat on, tightened, and held his hands together,...

“Go ahead, such a pretty girl... just throw it away. Xiang Jian, give your uncle some encouragement. Why don't you grow up and at least learn to cook porridge? ”

……

Li Waner sat in an empty room. In fact, the small room was full of things, but she still felt empty.

It's the third time she's felt that way.

For the first time, he said "two clear” at the intersection.

The second time, after she made that call, she got an absolute answer.

For the third time, he took off his clothes and left, perhaps never again.

“Two clear? How? I owe you so much, read you... so much. ”

All Li Waner now knows is that there is only one thing left, that she has nothing to do with this man anymore... No, absolutely not. All other thoughts are suppressed by this question, only this… absolutely not.

“Who made you mess with me...”