Chapter 1128: Devoted Love Always Ends in Heartbreak (6)
Tears fell drop by drop, and many things don’t cease to exist just because you choose not to think about them.
Just like the facade of harmony between her and Jing Mo over the past ten years, in the end, it was nothing but her own unilateral wishful thinking.
Feng Peining stayed awake all night, and Shui Jingmo only returned at dawn. As he passed by Feng Peining’s door, she suddenly opened it: "Jing Mo, let’s talk."
Shui Jingmo was not in the mood; he had searched all night and still found no clues.
He felt his thoughts might be absurd—how could he lose control over a casual remark by Xiao Xu years ago? Xiao Xu was so smart and capable; how could he die without any cause? Absolutely not, he must be overthinking it, he must be overthinking it.
Shui Jingmo’s mind was a mess. Hearing Feng Peining’s voice, he turned his head to glance at her, feeling somewhat powerless: "Pei Ning, I’m a bit tired. Let’s talk about it another day."
Having said this, he was about to turn and leave but was stopped by Feng Peining.
"Xiaoqi saw you with Ning Xu yesterday." Feng Peining suddenly spoke.
She noticed Shui Jingmo’s back instantly stiffen, and even his body seemed to tremble slightly, as if he was suppressing it with great effort.
"Jing Mo, let’s talk." Feng Peining said these words with great difficulty.
In truth, she didn’t have much courage to face this issue. The semblance of peace she had pretended to maintain for so many years was finally shattered in this moment. Once she spoke up, they could never be as they were before, not even allowing her the chance to quietly watch him.
But if she didn’t speak, continuing this way would only lead to mutual harm.
Feng Peining turned back to her room, and Shui Jingmo stood in place for a long time before following her inside.
"Jing Mo, I don’t want to know the truth, and I don’t want to understand your story. We’ve been married for ten years, I’m not a fool, it’s just because I like you too much that I’ve often pretended not to know things even when I clearly did." Feng Peining looked at Shui Jingmo: "Today I only have one question for you. I hope you can be honest with me, and stop making things difficult for yourself, and stop making things difficult for me."
Feng Peining bit her lip, gathered her courage, closed her eyes, and after a long time, opened them again to look at Shui Jingmo: "In this lifetime, is there any chance that you could love me?"
She didn’t ask whether you have ever loved me, or if I have a place in your heart. She knew too well that in their ten years of marriage, there might have been friendship and familial bonds, but the one thing that was absent was love. He never loved her; no matter how much she didn’t want to admit it, it was an undeniable fact.
𝑓𝓇𝘦ℯ𝘸𝘦𝑏𝓃𝑜𝘷ℯ𝑙.𝑐𝑜𝓂
So she asked if there’s any possibility of you loving me.
As long as he said yes, then from that moment onward, no matter what happens, she would unwaveringly stand by his side, even if he couldn’t love her now. As long as he gave her an opportunity, she would go to great lengths, willing to wait hundreds or thousands of years if necessary.
Her eyes were full of bitterness; despite all the heartache, Feng Peining still smiled at him: "Jing Mo, I just want to hear one truthful word. You don’t have to worry about implicating the innocent. After all, we’ve been married for ten years, you should know what kind of person I am."
She truly didn’t want to explain these words; deep down she still held hope, believing that she actually had a place in his heart.