Chapter 965: I Won’t See You Again
Back then, when They were in the Qin Palace, they were merely innocent and young, finding solace in each other’s company. Such feelings were mostly a comfort for loneliness and couldn’t withstand any tests.
So if Brother Jiu hadn’t died at Qin Feng’s hands, but took her away from the Imperial Palace and eloped, their ending might not have been any better.
Her self-righteous persistence, now in retrospect, seems like a lifetime ago and like a farce.
And she actually gave herself up for this, willingly enduring hellish torment to avenge her lover. The torment she suffered in the Qin Palace, which she thought of as a living death, was of her own making.
After leaving the Qin Palace, having avenged her great hatred, she could start anew, yet she felt continuing to live was meaningless and committed suicide.
Brother Fengxi saved her, using his own life to save hers. It was then she realized how important Brother Fengxi was to her. She felt the sky had fallen, realizing she had missed true love.
So over the years, she still lived proudly, mourning Brother Fengxi in her own way.
She always believed she truly fell in love with him.
But what was she doing?
Her so-called love was to arrogantly ignore everyone every day, even her own daughter. Was it only to fruitlessly long for someone?
Han Jing once said something to her, and looking back now, she realized it wasn’t wrong: a person who never understands what love is, will never deserve nor have love.
Hitting the nail on the head.
Reviewing her life, she truly never understood what true love was. She never gave anything, so in the end, she received nothing. Even the one who loved her the most became utterly disappointed and no longer loved her.
She never understood.
Yet now, suddenly, she understands a bit.
"You can take him away. I won’t meet with you again." After three days, she finally made this decision; she should say goodbye to them, to all her past, and try living in a different way.
She thought, when Brother Fengxi insisted on saving her, besides what he called an obligation, he also wanted her to live happily. Just as he said, he never wanted her to love him, only hoped she could be happy.
But she never was.
So destiny’s decree, which caused her to lose so much and miss so much, led to now, just to give her an opportunity for awakening, a chance to start anew.
It’s a pity she understood too late and missed too much.
Han Jing didn’t ask what she planned to do. From her position, as an abandoned child, not to resent her was not easy. Moreover, with Han Litong’s appearance and cultivation, wherever she goes, as long as she doesn’t court death herself, she wouldn’t die.
Han Jing carefully put Brother Fengxi’s coffin into her Space Ring and nodded at Han Litong.
Han Jing was about to leave when Han Litong seemed hesitant but still called out to her: "Do you know where Qing Jue is?"
Han Jing glanced back at Han Litong, this was indeed the first time she met such a carefree mother. Truth be told, she felt a bit heartbroken for Han Qingjue, having been through so many life-and-death situations, and now her own mother only found the mood to ask about him.