Chapter 470: Tsundere Amazon II
He smiled, a slow, lazy smile that made my knees feel weak, and then he said: "First, good morning, Tamar. Second, we both totally enjoyed last night. Even the role play thing was insane. I happen to like roleplay, as a result of both training Heka and myself."
His face was like something mortals shouldn’t see: he was so beautiful and handsome! His light lashes fluttering like that, those delicate strands of gold catching the morning light and casting tiny shadows across his cheekbones.
That slightly expressionless gaze, the way his blue eyes seemed to look through me rather than at me, calm and unruffled despite my outburst.
Smooth skin, glowing with the warmth of recent sleep, unblemished and perfect in a way that made my fingers itch to reach out and touch.
Ah, I have to bite my lips else I will blurt things out!
My teeth pressed into the soft flesh of my lower lip, hard enough to sting, hard enough to remind me that I needed to maintain control.
I want to tell him quickly; how I love every part of his body, the strength in his arms, the breadth of his shoulders, the way his chest rises and falls with each breath.
I want to kiss him all over, to press my lips to every inch of his skin and worship him.
But... instead, some words came tumbling out, sharp and accusatory, a shield:
"Damn it, I’ve had it with you!" I began, turning away from him to grab a piece of cloth from a nearby table. I wiped the leaking semen down my thighs with rough, hurried motions, my cheeks burning with embarrassment as I felt it trickle down my skin. "So calm and unaffected by real life! You believe the world exists solely for your amusement, I presume! F-Fucking a bona fide Amazon princess like it’s nothi—"
My breath immediately caught in my throat when I turned to see the look on Benjamin’s face.
It wasn’t the usual silly, aloof one he wore when I rained insults down on him.
The teasing smile, the playful glint in his eyes, the relaxed posture that said he found my outbursts amusing rather than hurtful.
All of that was gone, replaced by something I had never seen on his face before.
Benjamin’s face...
He was visibly surprised by my outburst just now..
His mouth hung open, frozen mid-word, and his body had gone completely still as he processed what I had just said.
The shock was so raw and unguarded that it pierced through all my defenses and struck at something deep inside me.
I felt fear course through me immediately, cold and sharp like ice water in my veins.
This seemed like my grace truly had run out, like my endless games had finally pushed him past the point of tolerance.
He had always been patient with me, always understanding, l and willing to look past my words to the feelings I could not express.
But everyone had their limits, and I had just discovered his.
I should quickly intervene and fix the misunderstanding.
I needed to take back my words and explain that I hadn’t meant what I said, to make him understand that I was just being my usual stupid self.
"What? C-Cat got your tongue?!" I folded my arms across my chest, trying my best to avoid eye contact, but failing. My gaze kept drifting back to his face, to the shock that was slowly fading into something more complicated. "E... Ever since you came to Verdant Spire, you have been swinging that cock of yours around, am I wrong?"
No...
No, this is wrong.
Every word that left my mouth made it worse, digging the hole deeper, pushing him further away.
I could feel the distance growing between us, could see it in the way his expression shifted from shock to something more guarded.
"You seduced the secluded garden of flowers with your scent, and had us all over you in no time, we must be a village of whores."
No, no, no!
This is not what I want to say!
My mind screamed at me, desperate and frantic, but the words kept coming, driven by years of habit and fear.
Benjamin, please, understand I am being my usual self!
Please... stop looking so shocked about it...
"If... If no one will speak up," I cleared my throat, holding some control over myself, forcing my voice to steady. I could feel the tears threatening to prick at the corners of my eyes, could feel the walls I had built around my heart beginning to crumble. "I have to... You see, I... uhm, like you just a little bit. Just a little bi—"
"She’s wrong, Benjamin!"
Eh?
The voice came from behind me, sharp and clear.
I spun around, my heart pounding in my chest, to see Lulu standing at the entrance to my chambers, her eyes closed tightly, her fists clenched at her sides.
She had suddenly appeared, yelling behind me, facing Benjamin.
She was in a brown robe, a thin sheet of cloth that did little to hide her form, her hair mussed from sleep.
Her face was flushed, her expression one of fierce determination.
"We... We certainly were happy even before you arrived here," she began, her voice trembling slightly but her words resolute. Her closed eyes squeezed tighter, as if she was gathering strength from somewhere deep within herself. "but it just elevated with your appearance! If anything, we are the villains. We held you at Verdant Spire so you will help us produce children and soothe our sexual needs! We were not seduced by you at all!"
She then ran quickly and embraced the still stunned Benjamin, her arms wrapping around his torso, pressing her body against his.
Her voice cracked as she continued, muffled against his chest: "Don’t take Tamar’s words for reality... Please, she does not mean it... She never means the hurtful things she says. It is just... Please do not be angry with her."
Benjamin’s eyes then finally softened, the shock fading from his gaze as Lulu’s words sank in.
His hand came up to pat Lulu at her back, rustling her sheet robe, his touch gentle and reassuring.
"Ahaha! It just caught me off a little," he got back to his usual self, with his bright smile. "And hugging a naked man out of nowhere is quite the bold action, Lulu!"
He gave her a quick kiss at her lips, then wiped her tears with his thumb, his touch tender.
Lulu’s cheeks flushed a deep crimson, but she smiled through her tears, leaning into his hand.
He spared me a glance, his blue eyes meeting mine across the room.
There was no anger in them, nor resentment. Just understanding, the same endless patience he had always shown me.
"I plan to have a lot of fun before leaving, but it’s not like I’m going extinct. If you miss me, I can just run back in mach speed!"