About my hopeless brother and sister

In the now where there is little choice.

In the now where this girl is guarding me without complaint.

I didn't have much else to choose from.

I gripped her hand hard and looked up at the shining Ferris wheel in the sky, the disc that flowed like a shooting star across the sky.

It was time to answer. Promise her.

With her, always after.

"I..."

"Toot...toot...toot...toot...toot...toot...toot..."

Chapter 241 About My Burned Out Future (I)

The smell of blood.

Obviously no wound, obviously no blood.

Why, with the taste of blood in your throat? It's fishy and salty, and each breath is as painful as tearing my own throat apart, as if I'm breathing down a sharp blade. But I still have to breathe on, and I have to breathe faster.

There's no feeling in my legs anymore, almost no vision at all. All I see is hazy white fog and dark blood, and my legs have no strength or feeling, but I'm still running, running as fast as I can, stumbling and crashing through the crowd, gasping for air, every cell in my lungs screaming for me to stop, every cell in my body warning me that I can't go on, but I still have to run.

Tears rolled out of my eyes so frantically that I couldn't tell anymore if it was because my eyes were sore or because of, the pain and urgency that was all over my body.

It hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts...it hurts.

The tearing sensation from my muscles, the blood in my throat, the choking that wants to shout but has no strength, the torture of wanting to cry but no longer having tears, all of it, all of it, all of it, is lingering me into pieces of flesh and shattered pieces of flesh. Rather, I felt that death was now a relief for me.

No way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way...no way.

It's all a lie! It's all a lie! It's all a lie!!! It's impossible! My sister, no way! That's not going to happen to her! Absolutely not! She must not have this happen, it's not fair! It's absolutely impossible! She should always have that bantering smile, she should always glow and shine in front of me, she should always take it in stride with a smile, and it would never, ever end right here!

That's my sister! That's my sister! My only sister...my last...my last family....

That's enough! Enough already!!! What else! What else! What have I got to lose! Why...why is this happening...why is this happening...why is this happening...this The world...why is the world doing this to me...when I have done nothing wrong, I have done nothing...why is it taking away a little bit of everything I cherish around me!

The hand hit the elevator button in front of me as hard as it could, the pain from the collision of the hand with the metal partition barely perceptible. The blurred numbers above the elevator move quickly! I'm going in! Let me in! Hurry up and let me in! Punch after punch slammed against the elevator door, the people around me looked at me with strange looks, but didn't come to stop me, nor did they need to, I just wanted, to get to my sister.

The elevator doors opened, the people inside stepped out, and I fell into the elevator, hitting my forehead hard against the wall, which more than hurt restored my dizzy vision, stood up holding onto the smooth wall of the elevator, pressed the number for the floor, leaned my back against the wall, and slowly slid down.

It was obviously a crowded elevator, but everyone consciously got out of my way and looked at me with strange looks.

That's enough ah...all enough ah...already...can ah...whoever...whatever...whatever happens...please...please...leave my sister alone okay...don't do anything to her...it doesn't matter what you do to me...do whatever...please...don't...don't hurt my sister....

The elevator came to a slow stop, barely getting up and out of the elevator. The dim light inside the hallway barely illuminated anything, only the green sign for the safe passage at my feet glowed in the darkness. I stared at the end of the hallway, the room with the glowing red light, the one where, now, my sister lay.

"Are you alright...that...you're Mr. Qin Feng aren't you?"

Two nurses came up to me and held me up, looking at me with some concern. I nodded slightly, my eyes, which could no longer see anything clearly, staring there, at my sister there. Staring, where my sister was now struggling.

Extremely severe burns...60% of her body...toxic gas inhalation...eye injuries...shock state...no longer conscious...dying...still being resuscitated...there is hope but I hope you will be prepared....

The nurses seemed to talk to me a lot, but, I only heard a few words. I didn't understand much of what they said, but, I was able to understand some of it.

I am hopeful but still hope that you will be prepared...I am hopeful but still hope that you will be prepared...I am hopeful but still hope that you will be prepared...I am hopeful but still hope that you will be prepared...I am hopeful but still hope that you will be prepared.

"Please..."

I was left with, the last words I wanted to say. The last thing that held me together disappeared with it in an instant, and I looked there, at my sister there, at the place that might leave me, and nothing could be said. There was just this one word left in my head, and nothing beyond that.

I, too, was left with this one sister...I, too, was left with this last family member....

"Don't worry, we will do our best, but please be prepared. We are currently throwing in resuscitation, so please take it easy."

The nurses carefully released me and headed to the resuscitation room. I can't see my sister inside, I don't know what she looks like, my sister, right now, how much pain...why...why...why ...why is this happening to my sister...why...when...it's not going to happen! ...why...why....

I want to yell, I want to scream, I want to scream, I want to cry, but why why why why, I can't do anything, I can't move every part of my body, I can only sit so still and look at the lights overhead.

Why, I can't even get any tears out....

Why...can't I cry out...why, I'm clearly in pain and want to die, but I can't do anything, I can't even make a sound.

It seems that it was not my sister but me who was lying inside. Lost consciousness, lost feelings, lost everything, why, just now, whether it was the churning heart or stomach, this time, all lost feelings, I can't feel anything except that I can feel the heart still beating.

There was nothing left in the brain, pain, torture, anger, despair, all gone. All that was left was an empty shell of nothing but my eyes staring at the ceiling.

Sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die...sister will die.

It's just me alone, just me alone, just like my parents, leaving me alone, who have left. It's just me alone, day or night, wherever whether it's day or night, whatever it is, whatever it is, it's just me alone, who has left me, after that, it's just me alone.

It's just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone...just me alone.

It's just like the beginning, no matter how much I do, I can't change any of this, everything I am, everything that I live for, is gone. My future will always be just me, no matter what I do, just as it was in the beginning. Even if I change, I still can't change that.

I'll only have myself by my side.

"Cousin..."

On the other side, a small figure covering my arm appeared inside the corridor, trembling, came up to me, crouched down, and took my face in her hands.

My cousin's tear-filled face glistened with fear in the light, and she looked at me, her lips trembling violently a few times, before suddenly hugging me tightly and crying loudly.

"Yes...yes...yes...I'm sorry...no ...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry.... ...it's...all...my...fault.... ...it's all....me....I blame.... ...cousin...cousin...just...just...turned into ...that way...it's all...it's all my fault....it's all my fault!!!! "

The young girl's heartbreaking cries were painful in my ears, and the young girl held me tightly, the last of her strength in her hands, clinging to what she thought was her haven, panicked and hugging the last warmth of her heart, crying out, aching, suffering, desperate.

"No...it's not your fault."

I looked at the ceiling and didn't reach out and hug her, instead, nothing was going through my mind. I just stared at the ceiling and whispered. Why, my brain could start thinking, but I still had no feelings, why, my thoughts, were so strange.

It wasn't her fault, the fire wasn't set by my cousin. It had nothing to do with the cousin, and it wasn't the cousin's fault that my sister, being the elder, was only protecting her younger self. It was the sister's own choice, it was all her own choice. All I can say is that she didn't do anything wrong, but this ending is not what I wanted.

There's nothing more I can do at the moment, whatever it is.

"Cousin..."

I pushed my cousin away, stood up, and looked over there. But I didn't know what I was supposed to be thinking about, rather, I was not thinking about anything anymore.

Maybe I'll be the only one from now on....

No...I don't want to be the only one...but, but...but there is no way...I ...I couldn't stop this...just like my parents, I couldn't stop it at all. Even when it happened, I was blissfully playing with Wu Moxie inside the playground.

It was my fault.

It's all my fault.