I'm still alive

Before we knew it was coming the morning. After confirming that Dawn was caught in a small window, I got up from my seat. I slept through the night and woke up again because of a nightmare. Tension and fear press hard all over the body, slowly eroding my body. Eyes continue to turn to the door, and the sound of the wind coming from outside is astounded by surprise.

Whether I do it or not, Chae-yeon was asleep in secret. Watching it makes me feel relieved and smile without realizing it. As soon as I got up from my seat, I opened the warehouse door and looked around the inside of the convenience store slowly.

The interior of the convenience store was a little dark because the sun did not rise completely. But I got used to the darkness before I knew it, so I busily wandered around the convenience store. They filled their bags with food and water, and also put their daily necessities in their bags. The bag was very heavy with barely enough packing, but on the contrary, I felt lighthearted.

I saw a dead man at the convenience store. I shut my eyes tightly and turned away because I didn't want to see it. Then what happened yesterday passed by in front of my eyes. I opened my eyes, and gave a long sigh. He needed a weapon to protect himself. After sitting for a while, I thought about it and found a broken sack next to the body. When I saw the broken sack, I had a good idea and went back into the warehouse.

There were other mop in the warehouse than yesterday's mop. I grabbed the mop and broke the sack like yesterday, and only packed the wood. Then he ripped off the package of a kitchen knife placed on one side of the convenience store and took out the kitchen knife. A sharp blade shines gruesomely in this darkness.

And I found a thick black electric tape and connected the kitchen knife and the sack to tie it up several times. Then a crude, yet sufficiently dangerous, spear was made. I had so many thoughts when I faced him yesterday. superior force over adult men And a blind rush without fear. Long Richie's weapon was advantageous if we had to fight again.

I wasn't a room viewer anymore. I must not be helpless when faced with death. I must protect myself, and the child. Looking at Chae-yeon as she tied up the tape, she was asleep like an angel. I made another resolution watching the child sleep.

When the sun rose completely, he shook the child up. The child looks tired but admirably raises himself. Then he wiped his eyes and stared at me again. She took out food from inside the convenience store and fed it to Chae-yeon, and I filled my stomach with confidence.

I grabbed the child's hand and approached the door and opened it carefully. There was no sign of popularity outside and it was quiet. As if not everyone had woken up, the city remained silent. I held out my hand to the child with a deep breath in the cold.

Chae-yeon held my hand as if it were natural. With the other hand, he clasped the window made of a sack of harness and opened the convenience store door completely and came out. I crouched slightly as the cold air hit me all over. Then, tighten the hat tightly on the jumper that Chae-yeon was wearing. He also had to think about managing his body temperature. Even the weather was not on our side.

I spent the whole night thinking about where to go. There was no expectation that the rescue team would come, and eventually decided to create a shelter and hide for safety. I thought about going back to the neighborhood park where there were no people, but I shook my head in a sense of awkwardness. Still, he did not change his mind that a deserted mountain would be good.

There were large and small mountains around Sillim-dong. I thought about which mountain would be good, and thought of Gwanaksan Mountain for the first time, but Gwanaksan Mountain is far from where it is now and has to pass by the main street. It was highly likely that there were many people who came to hunt people because residential areas were also concentrated in the downtown area.

After all, the second mountain that I thought of was Cheongnyongsan Mountain. The location was also very close, making it a perfect fit. After entering Dorimcheon Stream along the boulevard and walking along the Dorimcheon bike path, he planned to cross the road and enter Cheongnyongsan Mountain.

There was no time for further delay. I held the child's hand tight, and slowly moved along the wall. I could see right in front of me. The car is standing heavily, and dry bloodstains and rotting intestines hang from place to place.

I felt nauseous, but I tried hard to shut my mouth and hugged Chae-yeon in her arms to cover her eyes. And I moved my steps busily. When they came into view, they curled up for a while and went back, and when they came into view, they waited for a while to find another way.

It took half a day to complete the straight election, which was less than 800 meters to Dorimcheon Stream. Chae-yeon was seen exhausted, but if she took a break here for a while, there was a possibility that the sun would set even before she arrived at Dorimcheon Stream. I'm sorry, but I kept walking, urging Chae-yeon.

When I first left the convenience store, I heard our footsteps and worried that they might come. Strangely, however, when the sun rises, their range of cognition has decreased considerably. One time, I couldn't find him on the cover road and I heard footsteps. I thought I was going to die when I found him near the cover road, but at night I couldn't hear my footsteps. I hurried past the neighborhood with breathless air.

When I looked closely, my eyes that glowed red like a madman turned hazy. Does light make her look like that? Is it only the sun's light? I had a lot of questions, and I was thinking about experimenting with how far he recognized the sound, but I soon stopped when I realized that it was stupid. And in case of a possible situation, he moved quickly, maintaining the proper distance.

And I arrived at Dorimcheon by the time I was completely exhausted. Dorimcheon Stream, where the water level has decreased significantly due to winter, was a bit bleak and gloomy. I looked around to see if there were any of them wandering around, but I couldn't see it in the distance except for the Dorimcheon Bridge. As it was a bicycle road, I looked around to see if there would be any abandoned bicycles, but I couldn't see them. It would have been comfortable if I had a bicycle, but it was a little disappointing.

In case they found us on the side road, we decided to move diligently again. I got off the street and started walking on the bike path. When she started walking on the bike path, she finally held her exhausted Chae-yeon in her arms.

I spent a lot of time getting out of the city and entering Dorimcheon Stream, the sun was dusk, and by the time it passed through Dorimcheon Stream, it began to set quickly. It was not a good choice to move at night because there are people who are active at sunset. Knowing that, I urgently found a place for us to spend the night.

A large building in the distance caught my eye as I hurried my steps. As I headed there almost like running, I noticed an ordinary sign, and when I read it, it was a bicycle rental center. The sun began to set, so there was no time to think about it. I decided to stay up all night here.

I put down Chae-yeon for a moment, and held the sack tightly with both hands. Then he slowly approached the building, biting his lips. Chae-yeon had already followed me in tears, and when I looked back and smiled and told her to stay there, she seemed to dislike it but stood still there. I breathed a small sigh, and stuck the spear forward. And quietly opened the bicycle rental center door.

The smell of the air was stinging at the tip of my nose. I sniffed and smelled it, but I couldn't smell the disgusting smell of my rotten corpse. And there was no movement in sight. And given the white dust on the desk, it seems that no one came in for a long time.

This is a relief. I breathed out and nodded as if to come to Chae-yeon, and Chae-yeon was admirably quick to see if she understood me at once and rushed to me with quick steps and clasped my hand. I closed the door and locked as soon as Chae-yeon came in.

Then she put Chae-yeon on a chair on one side, and put down a heavy bag on her desk. And at that moment I began to hear a little footsteps. I flinched and grabbed the sack window, and turned my eyes in the direction of the sound of footsteps. There is a long shadow over whether there was a room out of sight.

Then came the sound that made my ears suspicious.

Who are you?’

It was a woman who came out of the room.

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What I did as soon as I saw her was a warning not to come near the spear. It didn't matter whether she was a monster like them or an ordinary human being. I am not a good man enough to do a favor to strangers who approach my domain, my flock.

Although it is a cheap kitchen knife produced by factories, the sharpness of the knife was quite threatening. In front of the enemy pouring on her, she was backing away, as if embarrassed. Chae-yeon woke up from her seat, and was carefully glancing at her with curious eyes at one side of my leg.

As she stepped back little by little, I slowly looked at her. a shabby face, hair, and a full-dress look as if he hadn't washed up. And carrying a fairly large mountain-climbing bag. Also, her eyes, which were constantly shaken by fear, were telling her that she was a survivor who had fled from the end. He did not act decisively aggressive towards me, nor did he have anything that seemed to be a weapon, so he carefully lowered the spear carefully. However, they did not completely loosen their guard.

I told her to stay away from me in a deep, subdued voice, and then hugged Chae-yeon, who stared at her furtively, and came into the building. As I slowly entered one of the rooms, which seemed to be a staff lounge, I could feel the warm air on my skin rather than outside.

The employees here either didn't come to work or ran away a long time ago, but the inside of the lounge was full of dust. I roughly grabbed a handful of tissue placed nearby and dusted it off the sofa. And sit Chae-yeon there. When the child stared at me blankly, I stroked my head and opened a can of tuna from my bag.

And when she gave it to Chae-yeon, she smiled and took a can. It's been more than half a day since we had our last meal. The child must have been hungry, but he ate canned food deliciously. He was looking gladly at it, and a voice came from the door. I lifted the edge of the window reflexively and pushed it in.

Are you going to eat it?’

There she stood. I must have told you not to follow me, but I was angry at her shamelessly standing. But her eyes were all on canned tuna, which Chae-yeon was eating, as if she could not see a sharp spear blade. She was swallowing her saliva with a very earnest look. And after a moment's hesitation, he said,

'Can you give it to me, too?’

I shook my head and said in a voice full of displeasure. 'No.' Each can is a lifeline for us. You may have to risk your life to save this can in the future. She seemed very hesitant about knowing this value, but sometimes people needed to be brazen to live. She said: 'I haven't eaten for three days. Please.'

I slowly got up with a spear blade, meaning I'll hurt you if you don't back off. And the moment I was about to open my mouth, I felt like I was losing my pulse. While I'm not watching, Chae-yeon looked at her constantly and gave her canned tuna.

When I sighed deeply, Chae-yeon smiled and looked at me as if what was wrong with her. The child was pure, and a good child for others. What's wrong with giving food to a hungry person? It was like looking at me.

I was confused about what to teach my child. If the world had not changed like this, they would have said that they should cherish and share with each other, as they teach in textbooks. Because it was moral and ethical. But now the world isn't.

In a world turned into hell, morality will bring carelessness, and ethics will make a fool of a man in a moment. Should we teach this innocent little child the terrible reality? I closed my eyes tightly, and felt a little despondency and self-hatred.

I lowered the spear blade and took a breath and sat down on the sofa. Knowing it was a tacit permission, Chae-yeon thrust a can of tuna at her, and she took it carefully and sank down. And he took tuna in his mouth in a hurry, crying.

My mouth felt bitter. You have to help others because you are a person. Hana and Chae-yeon's worries that we should be selfish for survival continued to clash. Unknowingly, I was sighing and breathing out, and Chae-yeon approached me and sat down and soon hugged my arm.

Maybe it's because it's cold, or maybe it's an act of comforting me. However, knowing that the child was in a bad state of mind, I did not think he would have given such detailed consideration. But it wasn't a bad feeling. I took a can of tuna out of my bag again and held it out to the child.

She was eating her food, sobbing so hard that she didn't know if she was eating tears, runny nose or tuna. A sense of guilt passed through my mind as I looked at it. And strangely enough, I remembered the mother of the child who fell from the apartment and

She ate all the tuna, and licked all the oil in it. And he bowed his head in tears and said thank you. I looked out of the window, turning away from her in guilt and awkwardness. It was getting dark outside.

Chae-yeon was tired and began to yawn continuously when the sun began to set. And with sleepy eyes, my face was rubbing against my arm. I got up slowly, laid Chae-yeon on the sofa, brought a blanket on one side of the office chair and dusted her over the child. And gently patted and waited for the child to fall asleep. When the child fell asleep, complete darkness came.

When the sun was full, I took a bucket of water out of my bag, looked at her helplessly from one side and made a gesture to follow me. Then she followed me as if she knew.

The other room was a warehouse full of bicycle parts and fixtures for employees. I sat down on a box in your corner and drank it yesterday, reaching out to her a bottle of water that was half gone. Then she received a bucket of water with both hands, as if she were being given a persimmon, and hurriedly took it with her mouth.

I looked at her, gulping and rushing, and as she drank all the water, I asked her a question. Where did you come from and what was your situation? I thought information was the biggest factor to survive in this hell. Where's the danger, and somehow, there's no other variable. Knowing as much as I can would protect me and Chae-yeon.

She spoke in a quivering voice. I said I'm not a person who lives in this neighborhood. I was living in Suwon, but I think my friends and I decided to climb Gwanaksan Mountain for the weekend. And when he got off at Seoul National University Station with his friends, the division seemed to have burst.

Seeing that so many managed to get out of the crowded subway, she was a lucky case. And she said that at first five people escaped and came all the way here, and four died. She must have come here through the city, but it was the wrong choice.

And he ran away alone to escape them and came here when the sun started to set, and I guess the time he arrived was not that different from us. I heard it up to here and closed my eyes. There was nothing more for her.

But in a quivering voice she asked me where I was headed. I had no reason to answer, so I shook my head and slowly got up and headed for Chae-yeon. I could hear her anxiously calling me from behind. She said she would do everything if you took her with her. And when I didn't stop walking, he said he would give me money later.

I didn't answer at last. It was clear that I felt a little sympathy for her. But I had no power, no duty, to take responsibility for her. I'm not a rescuer, I'm not a hero. It's hard to protect me and Chae-yeon right now, but it's hard to take her with you.

And without saying anything, Chae-yeon approaches and closes her eyes in the dark. She didn't follow me into this room. Perhaps he was conscious of my resolute attitude. Guilt and self-hate kept me awake.

It's night. Chae-yeon was sleeping soundly, and I turn on the flashlight and write a diary. I heard her sniffling from the next warehouse.