My Feelings Can Wait

Ji Yooyan looked at the screen where the WeChat call was suspended, and was desperate.Lin Yue ran ahead of her, saw her stop, and curiously called her: "Sister Ji?"

Ji Yooyan recovered his senses and responded, squeezing his mobile phone and quickly followed.

When they arrived, Zhong Qingyu and Wei Yizhen were waiting outside the guardianship room.In the intensive care unit, doctors and nurses are examining Ji Changsong.

Zhong Qingyu clasped his hands together in front of his chest, Ji Youyan stretched out his hands to wrap her shoulders, and relied on her: "When you wake up, you will be fine."

After a long time, doctors and nurses filed out.The doctor said that the dangerous period has passed. The initial examination showed that the patient was very conscious and his limbs were conscious, but there was a little inflammation in the lungs. Other complications need to be observed for another two days.Follow-up inspection, if everything is stable, you can transfer to the general ward.As for the heart problem, it depends on the recovery and physical condition, and then decide whether or not to have surgery.

Zhong Qingyu was overjoyed, thanking heaven and earth first, and then holding the doctor's hand to say thanks.

Ji Yoo Yan's heart finally landed.The string that had been stretched suddenly came loose, and she felt a little dizzy.

She looked at Ji Changsong in the ward through the glass window, and found that Ji Changsong had his eyes open and seemed to have been looking at them outside.She asked the doctor: "Can we go in and see him?"

The doctor said: "Yes, go in one by one, not too long, the patient still needs to rest."

Ji Youyan agreed, then went through the formalities, brought a mask, hat and shoe covers, and after Zhong Qingyu came out, he went in.

The last time I faced my father like this was already ten years ago.Ji Yuyan opened the door and stepped into the intensive care unit, as if he was close to nostalgia, with sore legs and heavy breathing.

She grabbed her five fingers and walked closer to Ji Changsong step by step, looking at the emaciated and weak old man on the hospital bed.It was not the same as the father she remembered.Half of his once black hair has turned gray.It seems that it is not as serious and inaccessible as she has always remembered.

Ji Changsong was wearing a ventilator and watched her approach intently.

Ji Yuyan stood still a few steps away.She opened her mouth, but choked into silence.

All kinds of unwillingness and even resentment in the past, at this moment, have all turned into full of sadness and guilt.

The one lying on the hospital bed was indeed the father who told her bedtime stories to her when she was a child, the father who had dripped water on her back in a rainstorm, and the father who took her to summer camps, travels, and travels. A father who has seen the vast world...

She once, in ignorance, lost him forever...

She squatted down, looked at Ji Changsong, opened her mouth again, and finally cried out the long-lost "Dad..." in tears.

She suddenly remembered that her mother once told her that when she was young, she liked her father very much, because the first thing her father did when he came back from get out of class was to hug her and tease her.Even the first sentence she learned was not "mother" but "daddy".Ji Changsong coaxed her time and time again and taught her to learn the word "dad".

Ji Youyan lowered her head, tears wet the back of her hand.

Ji Changsong trembled his lips, closed his eyes, and a tear fell on the pillow along the wrinkle at the corner of his eye.

Ji Yuyan stopped his grief, sniffed, calmed An Ji Changsong's heart and said: "Dad, the doctor told me that you are fine, and you will get better soon. You can recover from your illness with peace of mind. My mother will take care of you. do not worry."

Ji Changsong looked at her quietly, as if making a chaotic "um" sound.

Ji Youyan smiled reluctantly.

The strangeness accumulated between the father and daughter for so long that she didn't know what to say to Ji Changsong now.A lot of what she wants to say, she is afraid that Ji Changsong does not like to listen.

No hurry at this time.

Finally, Ji Yuyan picked up and said a few words related to his mother, and then retelled Ji Changsong's news summary from yesterday to today.

In the past, their family ordered newspapers. Before eating every morning, Ji Changsong always read the newspapers to understand the major events in the world.

When the nurse reminded that the time was up, Ji Yuyan stood up and said goodbye to Ji Changsong.Ji Changsong watched her for a long time.

In the evening, Zhong Qingyu made a meal and delivered it. After the four of them had eaten, Zhong Qingyu saw Ji Youyan's eyes reddened, dusty and tired, and asked her to go home and take a bath and sleep well.From the rehearsal the day before yesterday to today, Ji Yuyan has been working and running intensively. Wei Yizhen was also worried that she could not hold it back, and agreed to persuade her to go back to rest.

Considering that his father's situation is temporarily stable, Ji Yuyan has a bed to rest in the family lounge, compromised and agreed to let Lin Yue accompany Zhong Qingyu, and he and Wei Yizhen went back to sleep in the middle of the night and changed shifts.

On the way back, Ji Youyan used WeChat to send a big red envelope to Lin Yue and Wei Yizhen.Wei Yi really laughed, and was not polite with her, so he clicked to accept it.

She and Ji Youyan informed about today’s work situation: “This time the New Year’s Eve concert, everyone was really amazed by you, so the heat went up by yourself, we only added a little firewood. The people are supposed to stand up.”

"The publicity and distribution of "The Story of Yaohua" has also been contacted, and it has already started to promote it." "The Story of Yaohua" is an ancient puppet taken by Ji Youyan two years ago. Because of various reasons, he repeatedly skipped files this time. After Ji Yuyan took a look, he burst out, and this inventory that had been under pressure was turned over.

Ji Yuyan thought for a while and asked: "Are we going to the hot search too often recently?"

Wei Yizhen also worried about this issue.But there is no way. There was no hot search in the plan before. Ji Youyan himself has been on the ground with a high profile. Now the drama is about to be broadcast. You have to do the promotion in the contract with the film party.

Wei Yizhen frankly said: "Nowadays, most of the comments are praised. After all, we do have the capital to blow. Of course, it is indeed unavoidable that some people often see you being a bit annoying on the hot search recently, saying that you are afraid it is not a hot Search package year."

"However, don't worry about it." Wei Yi said with confidence: "I have considered all of these. I will contact the producer of "There is Faith in the World" for the future propaganda direction, and it can basically be finalized. The official announcement will be required. Just send these dissatisfied people a lead, burn the fire, let them vent. When the burning is almost done, we will reverse it. This way the propaganda needs heat, and based on the psychological compensation, after the reversal, we can also be able to fully recover. Retreat." "There is Faith in the World" is a new play that Ji Youyan will enter after the end of the variety show.

"It's just that you might be wronged for a few days." Wei Yizhen said slowly.

Black, black, red and red are all means of propaganda, and Ji Youyan has learned to accept it.She rubbed her eyebrows and acquiesced, but she said beforehand: "It can't be the reversal of the scandal."

Wei Yi really didn't care: "Can I not know?" She teased: "I know, you can only gossip with Jing Xiu now."

Ji Yuyan showed his first real smile today.It was just a faint, and soon disappeared on the corner of the lips.

She clicked on WeChat again, and looked at the short talk time between her and Jing Xun.

In the afternoon, Axun asked her, "Is Lu Fang really just the son of your mother's good friend?", indicating that Axun obviously found out that her relationship with Lu Fang was not just such a relationship, so she panicked.I'm sorry for the concealment, and embarrassed for the hesitation.She didn't know how much Jing Xiu knew, whether there was any error in what she knew.

She and Lu Fang have known each other for a long time. Lu Fang's parents are colleagues and friends of her parents.Since childhood, they have attended the primary school affiliated to the university where their parents worked. They often go to school together. They grow up together and go to the same junior high school and high school together until college.Lu Fang likes her, everyone knows that everyone thinks they should be together, including their parents.Except for herself.

She didn't like Lu Fang, she always regarded Lu Fang as her brother.But in the face of his unclear and measured gestures, she hinted that she had declined, but did not embarrass both sides.Perhaps it was her attitude that gave both parents a misunderstanding. They felt that maybe she was just a little girl reserved or her mentality hadn't changed. After a period of time, she would understand. After all, their generation came in this way.

So, in the year she was in graduate school, Lu Fang was going to study abroad, and the parents of both parties discussed, and the two of them got engaged first and settled down.Feelings can be cultivated slowly, anyway, there is still time before the two of them finish their studies and get married.Everybody is right, golden boy and jade girl, and a beautiful couple, which should be cherished.Everyone advised her so.

She also tried to convince herself that it might be the same thing if she likes it. Many people have never really loved someone in their entire life, and they have lived a life well; Lu Fang is very good in all aspects and has a good temper. Maybe they live together, it's really not too bad.Most people follow the rules and live a peaceful life, and she probably can.

However, the closer the engagement day, the more she understood.She can’t, she can’t, she is not reconciled, she is not willing!So she broke out.

When she met Jingxun, fell in love with Jingxun, and understood what a heartbeat is and what love is, she became more and more aware of how right and lucky it was that she did not give up the right to love someone.

This is a long story.If she answers Jing Xiu no, it will deepen the misunderstanding if she doesn't have time to explain clearly; if she says yes, it will become a self-deception with ironclad evidence.In such a chaotic and urgent moment, how can she explain to Jing Xiu in a few words without getting more and more wrong?

She needs a time to talk to Jing Xun calmly.

Ji Youyan’s parents’ community arrived. It was a closed community. Wei Yizhen entered the house only after showing the owner's card.

The location is not good, it is a bit remote, a bit far from the previous house, and far from the school.Ji Youyan wondered how his parents would buy a house here.

Wei Yizhen heard Ji Yuyan's dissatisfaction, and helped explain: "When I was picking up auntie, I had a few conversations with auntie, and also talked about the problem of the location of this community."

She paused and said, "Auntie said, "After you play a TV series, people at home will come to ask questions and even interviews from time to time. Neighbors in the neighbourhood often gossiping behind their backs, and they can't bear it, so they change houses."

Ji Yuyan was stunned, and immediately blamed himself.She thought they really didn't want to contact them before they changed their house.She thought that she would really erase the connection between them by not mentioning it, but she had never put herself in consideration for them, what kind of trouble her fame would bring to their lives.

She entered the room, stood in the hallway and looked inward, and at a glance she saw the family portrait next to the TV cabinet.There is water vapor in the eye sockets.

Wei Yi really remembered the heart-wrenching "humiliating style" Ji Yuyan had said to her before. Looking at Ji Youyan's relationship with his parents, he also guessed that their family should have been in a deep estrangement.

She comforted Ji Yuyan and said: "Yuoyan, the family is always a family, sit down and communicate well with you if you have anything. I think your parents have you in my heart."

Ji Yuyan picked up the photo frame and stared at it for a long time.

Wei Yizhen revealed: "The guest room I slept in yesterday actually seems to be your parents' study room on weekdays. When I borrowed the table, I noticed that there was a novel of "The Bells in the North City" and several fashion magazines in the bookcase behind. And the paper rolled up like a poster, there is a magazine that I scanned until the cover is the one you just shot some time ago."

She pointed to the room in front and continued, "There is also this room. Your mother said it is your room. You see, they are actually expecting you to go home."

It turns out that there are people who are looking forward to her coming home. She is not really a homeless duckweed, a lone soul who has nowhere to go after death.

Ji Yooyan’s tears finally slipped silently on the glass of the photo frame, as if their whole family had wet their cheeks.

Wiping the tears on the photo frame, she whispered to Wei Yizhen: "Sister Wei, I see, thank you."

Wei Yizhen patted Ji Yuyan on the shoulder, and said warmly: "Okay, it's not too early, you go take a shower, and take time to sleep after washing. I'm going too."

Ji Yuyan nodded.

She pushed away the bedroom her parents had left for herself. The layout of the bedroom was almost the same as her bedroom back then.Even the wall of awards was moved one by one.

Ji Yuyan slowly closed the door and stepped into the room.She scanned the tables, chairs, bedspreads in the room, and looked at the decorations on the table in the room a little bit: the piggy bank she had saved for a long time, the plaster statue she made by herself during the summer camp, her most commonly used headset... …Everywhere, there is the breath of her life.

She has touched the table, chair, bed, and there is no dust, obviously she is always taking care of it.

Why are they so proud, so proud that no one is willing to bow their heads to show good, so proud, just missed a lifetime.

Ji Yuyan stood still, achingly sad.

After a long while, she took a deep breath and made a decision.She turned around and went into the attached bathroom, washed her face, combed her hair, and became more energetic.

Then, she opened WeChat and asked Jing Xiu: "A Xiu, is it convenient for video?"

When she walked back to the desk and sat down, she received Jing Xun's reply with a simple: "Yeah."

Ji Youyan clasped his five fingers on the desktop and pressed the video request.