Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

- I should have cut in ready, but the moment I saw the wave of emotions in those moist eyes, Subaru realized he had been attacked with terrible regret.

There is no doubt that just one word now was an act that would have stripped Emilia of her heart wound - its sore lid. I brutally scratched my anxiety at the unblocked wound.

Subaru can't help but feel the painful sensation she felt again as a phantom pain.

"The 'trials' in the cemetery show the past... well, we all know it."

"- Eh."

Still, Subaru steps deeper in search of what lies ahead of him in pain.

A fierce earthquake ran through Emilia's expression, which bit her lips, and her trembling eyes still captured Subaru and wouldn't let go.

It was put on hold to say that Subaru had received it directly about the 'Trial'. I can't take it lightly that Emilia can do it because I made Subaru, etc., and most importantly, Subaru is now in a state where qualifications have been taken away. When you lie to rest, it's not strange that they think so.

As long as that happens, you just have to tell them how you sincerely feel about Emilia.

"So that's why Emilia turned back, too, I suppose. Troubled and tormented, I'm sure I'll hold him alone... and I know he's still trying to 'try' tonight."

――――

In the four repetitive worlds, Emilia has never relied on Subaru for the contents of "Trials". That's because Subaru was half-witting her right to challenge her that she didn't need to be 'tested', or because Emilia herself didn't get a chance to reveal it to Subaru.

The former problem is now cleared because Emilia is the only one who can challenge the 'trials', and the latter problem is precisely what we are trying to decide at this moment.

Listening to Subaru's voice, Emilia leans down with her cheeks stretched.

Subaru continues his words before his eyes, bordered by his long lashes, are completely distracted.

"Still."

――――

"Can you put a little luggage on me that you're about to crumble in? If you have a horrible past to look back on, why don't you let me stand next to you challenging me there?

The leaning of his leaning neck stops, and he looks at Subaru again, like he's afraid.

You can't show yourself anxious or weak in those Emilia eyes. Subaru, unsubstantiated and confident, takes Emilia's gaze out of his chest.

Unfounded confidence and vanity, I'm very good at putting that up.

"In retrospect, I don't know anything about Emilia. I like you. Sometimes I have a super preference for appearance, and I've touched it while I was spending time with you, because your insides keep me waiting."

――――

"In that way, I can tell you that I like you as you are now. But I don't know what you've been through, how you feel, or what you've been thinking about by the time you become who you are now... I don't know anything about that. Because I didn't think I had a chance or a need to know. It's more important now than ever.... but"

"... but?

"Now, if there's a scene where you have to look back on your past and say that you can't wait to stand alone in that place... will you give me the credentials to intercept the cut that will make you who you are before you have to stand up to?

Because instead of Emilia, the qualification to replace her shoulder for the ordeal that comes down to Emilia has been taken away.

Then Subaru wants the credentials to be able to support Emilia by her side and let her lean on her when she is tired and about to fall.

Because, although it may only be a rest, the moment when the rest of your heart saves you is bound to exist.

――――

Svalbard stands still and waits for Emilia to reply.

Emilia's eye swings tell her about the intense grit that happens in her. Lost and confused, guilty and self-loathing. Various emotions are raging around in Emilia's thin body, trying to eat and break.

Eventually, Emilia had a small voice,

"Shh, the existence of Subaru... that, you just stay, you help me... so I can't believe you bothered Subaru any more..."

"I don't think Emilia is annoying. What I can do for you is lucky for me. When you're in trouble and you want someone to reach out, I think I want to be the first to reach out."

"-"

In a weak voice, I tell Emilia again, who tried to leave Subaru's proposal.

Subaru is not going to pull here unless Emilia takes a serious rejection stance. Originally, there was a sense that she was stepping into something she didn't want to talk about. Now, where that has been expressed in a passive manner, Subaru's readiness does not shake.

With that degree of readiness, Subaru didn't slap Roswar on the contract.

Still grinding Emilia closed her eyes much harder and looked down,

"Subaru is..."

――――

"Subaru, believe me..."

The words that were supposed to follow were not spun out of Emilia's mouth. Just before I ran out of words, her nobility made me deny the cowardly words.

There is nothing more shameful to do as a person than doubt the trust of the other person who is making a sincere appeal to me.

That's exactly the solitude that once failed Subaru and slapped Emilia on.

The spirituality of Emilia, mentioned, was even more noble than being cornered.

So Subaru never listened back or dug back into what he was saying, and Emilia dropped her shoulders to regret what she said.

"... say what you want to hear, Subaru"

…………

"From my mouth, I'm sure it's nothing but a ruptured story. … so listen up from Subaru"

"... okay?

"- Yeah. Because I'm sure that's another 'trial' for me"

Subaru loses sight of the words for a moment in the face of Emilia smiling with a voice like she gave up.

Then he shook his head to regain his mind, and Subaru pointed to the bed to change the place.

"In the meantime, it could be a long story, let's sit down"

"... yes,"

Emilia sitting on her bed, right where she lives. Subaru drags the chair, sits in front of her and faces her from the front.

Emilia waits for Subaru's words as she stretches out some wrinkles in her sleepless clothes.

Waiting for the words that way, Subaru reached a variety of critical occasions, hesitating only for a few seconds to ask from what to start with, then make the words.

"What past did Emilia see in the 'trials' at the cemetery? Experience tells me it's like a memory of regret for me."

Subaru asks questions as he chooses words to avoid being noticed as a hands-on experience.

The first 'trial' is to face your past. But the past Svalbard saw was not 'the past that was actually there'. It can be said that the performance was newly shaped, setting the stage for the original world family, the guilt of the past itself, which is a sign of regret for Subaru.

So what was the 'trial' like for Emilia?

To Subaru's inquiry, Emilia once licked to dampen her dry own lips,

"The past I... saw is probably... memory before I went to sleep, I think"

"-? Before sleeping...?

"Yes, before you go to sleep. As a blur, I don't remember very clearly...... I saw it there. I was still small, so I'm sure I am"

Subaru is puzzled by Emilia's words in such an attitude as to look at and confess his memory.

Small self, I know what the expression means. If "trials" are a reflection of the past, some times they will face their own childhood, depending on their retrospective time.

But Subaru doesn't understand the expression - before he goes to sleep.

"Wait. What do you mean, before you go to sleep? Does that mean something different from a normal sleep at night?

"Yeah, it's not. Before I fell asleep... before I fell asleep in the great trees of the woods, all the way in the ice. So all the time, all the time, the previous story"

"In the ice..." Emilia, what are you talking about?

I can't connect the front and back contexts enough that I want to suspect that you're deliberately making it difficult to understand. Yet only the imagination scratches 27615; with cold nails on Subaru's spine.

Subaru strives to remain calm as he feels the agony strike him in the chest.

"Answer me, Emilia. What do you mean, in the big trees, in the ice?

"... intact, meaning"

――――

Put aside a beat, Emilia looked up at Subaru and told him.

"I, with the big tree in the woods, have been ice pickled for a long time. Until the pack finds me and gets me out of there, awesome... for a long time"

- I found it.

- Oh, yeah?

'I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I left you alone. I've been looking for you. I've been looking for you, searching for you, searching for you. "

- Where are we? Awesome, rusty.

'I'll get you out of here in a minute. In such a lonely place, alone... how could this child have such an eye... why did I have this child for so long...'

- You know what? Why aren't you here?

- Because you're more loving than anything else. So glad to see you again. "

- You dare, are you happy?

'That's right. I've been reborn to meet you. "

- Are you?

"I'm... I'm your best ally. Your best, strongest ally."

- Then you, my.

'- Yeah, yeah. That's right. So from this day forward, I'm your family. From this moment on, there's nothing like you being alone. [M] - I swear to God.

- Really? Then it is......

- I'm glad.

Put your hands on your chest and reminisce about that time of happiness, Emilia.

Listening to her words, Subaru was feeling his mouth dry rapidly.

Emilia that she was asleep in the ice.

A prayer tree, that it was in her hometown. Ice marinated with its trunk, Emilia spent time there until she was rescued at the hands of the pack.

How much time do you have?

"Emilia. Is that place you lived in a place called the Ellior Forest? It's a forest that's been icy for a long time, and it's gradually expanding..."

"Mm-hmm. Since I woke up, that forest has become known as the Ice Forest. - Before I went to sleep, when I lived with everyone, it wasn't snowing, it was a place surrounded by bright sunshine and greenery."

"Green...... no, what's everyone like more than that?

It's just land I've been hearing about. Subaru doesn't know the BeforeAftermath of the Ellior Great Forest. So ask another part you cared about.

"Everybody. We lived together in a forest settlement... all the elves."

"Of the elves... that means Emilia's family was there too, right? With your father, your mother... and your brothers."

――――

Seeing Emilia fill her eyes with pity for Svalbard's words, Svalbard came to his senses of impetus and silence again.

Emilia should have said when it was. He said that only the pack beside him was a substitute for her and her only family.

With that in mind, I knew her family was lost in some way.

"Oh... I didn't mean to..."

"It's okay. Subaru is worried about me.... but there was no family of mine in the woods. Everyone in the settlement was nice to me and laughed at me... but the relationship I could call a bloody family wasn't in that forest."

"... wasn't there, that is. My parents...?

To the question, Emilia shakes her head quietly to the side.

Then you distract yourself by touching something on your fingertips, twisting the tip of your own threesome braided hair.

"When I found out, I wasn't there either. There wasn't much I thought was strange about it at that time... and there were people like your mother. He was so sweet, he was so strong, he was so cool... and he was there."

――――

"But the person, everyone... fell asleep the same way when I slept. There are still many people in the great forest of Elior who do not wake up asleep."

"- Nah!?

Pale, Emilia's voice as she leaves it to herself to just say the facts. Subaru clogs his throat at at its contents, but Emilia continues without knowing how to react.

"Me, ever since I woke up, that's how I watched Pac and everyone sleeping. One day, when someone wakes up from sleep just like me, so I don't have to figure anything out... that's what I thought, I've been there forever"

"... give me a minute"

The intensity of the amount of information in the content spoken makes it difficult to keep up with the organisation of Subaru's brain.

What the hell happened on the snowy day that Emilia first saw in the Great Forest of Elior?

"As far as I know, I'm pretty sure the Elior Great Forest started freezing... yes, it should have been a little over a hundred years ago. Somewhere before, I heard that at the king's place or something."

"Yeah. I, too, was amazed to hear it after I started studying at the Mansion"

"So Emilia was on the spot when that Eliole Forest started to freeze, right? You mean you know what caused it?

"- Yeah, I don't know"

Shake his head sideways, Emilia denies Subaru's words.

To Subaru frowning, she lay her eyes down with a painful look.

"I really don't know. I don't know what happened then... I don't remember clearly. I only remember that it was small and that it was terribly scary. But I've been asleep for a long time, so I can't remember..."

"It was small, I've heard it many times since earlier, but how old was that?

"... probably when I was about seven."

"Seven... how to count the age of an elf is good with a human being, right?

Emilia nods at Subaru's question.

Normally, one way to count older every few years. Elves are famous as a long-lived species, as is Emilia, a half-elf. Nevertheless, it also exists when I was just born in a long-lived elf, and I cannot blame Emilia, then seven years old.

By simple calculations, Emilia is now seven years old and over a hundred years old.

"I don't even care about the difference in age now. There's no point in worrying about them when they're different people."

"... Subaru, what's wrong? Something's wrong with me..."

"I didn't say it, I didn't say it. It's just that I thought Emilia and I had a difference in age."

With thoughts organized and air switched, Subaru adjusts the atmosphere with a light-mouthed feel. I wouldn't have guessed Subaru's intentions, but Emilia also took a small breath of "right" into Subaru's words, loosening some of her tightly stretched cheeks.

"But I haven't really grown as confident as I actually am because I've been asleep and unconscious for a long time..."

"Really? I don't know how fast the elves are growing, but I think it's enough to fit into the human frame."

A subtle look at Emilia sitting on her bed and laughing with her nose at worried Emilia's anxiety.

The hands and feet are stretched out and the body's ups and downs are feminine. The worried purple blue eyes and the hazy appearance highlighted the mysterious beauty of the narrow intersection between the girl and the woman.

Enough, Emilia is growing feminine.

but it seems that Subaru's sentiments were only slightly different from Emilia's concerns.

"No," Emilia shook her head sideways.

"The ice that was putting me to sleep was something that only allowed my consciousness to sleep without stopping. So even in the ice, my body kept growing. I woke up for a while, before I fell asleep and I didn't really move my body the same way, so much so that I failed a lot."

"Such ice...... yes, is that the harm"

It would have caused confusion if what had been a young seven-year-old body before he slept had turned into a flesh that had grown and cut off when he woke up.

Cartoons, cartoons, etc. often develop so that children grow up to be adults only in the flesh, but they can't be easily adapted that way either. It is natural flow that the brain perception does not engage and suffers as much as Emilia does.

"Roswar took me out of the woods, studied outside... I was amazed to learn that I had slept for nearly a hundred years. I've been asleep for so long."

"If you're normally old inside, it's the end of a roll when elves and other long-lived species remain trapped in the same ice..."

Ri, trying to say, Subaru felt that he had heard some absurd facts now.

With his eyes closed, Subaru quietly combines numbers in his head. Calculate, add and subtract, then recalculate to be sure a few times, turning questions into definite doubts.

"Emilia, now... you said you'd been asleep for almost a hundred years, right?

"Yeah, but...?

"So you were about seven years old before you went to sleep, right?

"Mm-hmm. Subaru, what..."

"Emilia. How many years has it been since Pack woke me up?

At least, the fact that she was taken out of the woods by Roswar is what's happened the last six months or so as far as I can tell. Until then, Emilia would have lived in the Great Forest of Elior, with Pac and the two of them. The problem is the time before she sleeps, wakes up, and meets Roswar.

Emilia left a difficult face on Subaru's inquiry, touching her own lips with her fingers,

"... maybe seven or six years..."

――――

When I heard that Emilia's answer, the question that sprouted in Subaru turned to certainty.

And the fact is, it becomes a severe earthquake and runs through Subaru's entire body.

I was seven years old when I was born, from which I slept for about a hundred years, and woke up seven years ago.

That means something like this.

- Emilia is about one hundred and seven years old. Appearance age eighteen. And he's fourteen years old.

"Actual age, appearance age, mental age... all, off..."

An unlikely age triple difference, realized because it was an elf.

Within Subaru, many questions about Emilia's behavior so far came to an end.

He was neglectful of rhetoric in making more than a hundred years of living elves, undeniably inexperienced in interpersonal terms by appearance, and sometimes thought the adorability of childish tricks and attitudes was noticeable.

That was all the harm she had to spend most of her life in the ice.

"I don't know fourteen... it's no different than a felt..."

Why should such a girl be held accountable so much? Increasingly, the mechanism of the king's race and his frustration with Roswar are recruiting.

And then Subaru cuts into a topic that was never irrelevant, reflecting on the unexpected derailment he made on a topic that was meant to mislead the atmosphere.

"You said you didn't know why the woods were ice pickled. So, what do you see in The Trial? Don't you see the memories before you get ice pickled?

"... yes, I think so. I'm sure that view I'm seeing is a memory of the time I really had before I went to sleep."

"All that fear in that memory, I knew I'd come across something there that froze you and the other elves, and I'm unconsciously rejecting it..."

"-No."

"'Cause that's all you got to be afraid of, right? It should be our greatest regret that' Trial 'shows. Then Emilia will see..."

"I told you no -!?"

Reasoning had assembled, and its Emilia screams had been scattered about Subaru, whose words had accidentally been fevered.

Emilia immediately blinked her eyes as she regretted what she had screamed, but closed her eyes to shake off that stray, turning her crying face to Subaru.

"That's not what I... saw in The Trials. I didn't see anything like that. … I saw…"

"Eh, emiri..."

"- The Devil's Child."

Zorr, the chill and sharpness like an ice column inserted into his back pierced Subaru's back.

Cover your face with both hands and hide your expression Emilia. From beyond that invisible face, a quiet voice continues to speak emotionally.

"Seeds of disaster. Silver abomination. Life you shouldn't have been born. A source of hatred. Unforgiven soul. Demon. - The Witch's Daughter."

――――

"To everyone who was nice to me, who was laughing at me, I was told that way in the cold snow, and so..."

Katakata and Emilia's hands and feet are trembling in small pieces all over her body.

Past that should have put you across your sleep, facing each other in "Trials". The unstoppable sorrow of her body is attacking me for remembering the malice of that stripping.

"From then on, I don't remember any more in the ice. But I bet everyone still hasn't forgotten that you were cursing me in the ice. 'Cause it stays that way all the time, and you keep taking over the curse."

――――

"That's why I wanted to get everyone out of the ice... and apologize"

With a crying face, Emilia is not here, she looked up to see the people and lowered her head quietly. And

"I'm sorry for the inconvenience. - I love everybody."